i tried going to bed at 12.
i failed.

since im up, tired and prob won't be slping soon, i shall attempt updating random souls who only know me via this blog abt the past week.

basically, i think im on my way to getting my own lil corner for my tent in the lam household, given how i've been there soooo many times.

and i played santa. altho i do not have a tummy ( i do not care. i do not have one. ) and i've no white hair, or white beard, i wore a red shirt. and i trooped to different houses with my rudolph and elfs.
so this yr, i gave cards, christmas socks, and to those lucky children who know the rudolph - cookies.
by the way, the cookies were cool. they were chocolate chip cookies that had a cookie-n-cream hershey chocolate in the centre..and it ended off with (for extremely nice kids) a layer of dark chocolate somewhere.
OH! and i fried an egg. it was salty. BUT YOU SHOULD STILL TELL ME THAT ITS NICE. ass.
andddd....i've been accused of chao keng-ing during my santa duty cos i snuggled in ppl's couches. to clear the record, i was not slacking. i was just a tired santa who had to rest for a bit before continuing on my journey to visit other kids. stupid rudolph.

then i baked cookies again. okay, in all honesty, i didn't. i only played with the dough. i went AFTER i woke up, AFTER clar n lump made the dough. i appeared (with their help, of course) and played. yay.
and we trooooooooped to geylang for supper! roy helped in this. haahahaha. i really do lk the over-tenderised beef horfun. BUT now all i wanna eat is astons' black pepper chicken. SIGH.

went to lin's place. zah n xw baked a chocolate banana cake. i err.......tried helping with the salad, and decided that in order for me to be more domesticated, i shld learn what to do with food. things that aren't eggs and maggi mee. i can't even figure out wad to do with the vege for salad. omg.
but it was fun.
cos i loved d chats and d game. its been so long since i last played a boardgame! ahhhhh.....i wanna play. yay.

had sushi and felt lk puking after that for overeating.
i've NEVER felt that bad.
and cos i dun wanna elaborate, this will be all abt the sushi.

its now 2.54 am .
i wanna slp.
someone teach me how to fall aslp.
i need help badly.
sickening.

i shall try cutting my hair tmr.
if i've time.

ahhhhhhhhh..

i wanna slp.

what's it with the disgusting trend to lose weight via dieting?

SIGH! MY 7210!

SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH...

fucking pissed.

love / Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[luhv]
Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.
–noun

1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2.a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. sexual passion or desire.
4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?
6. a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.
7. sexual intercourse; copulation.
8. (initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.
9. affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.
10. strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.
11. the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.
12. the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.
13. Chiefly Tennis. a score of zero; nothing.
14. a word formerly used in communications to represent the letter L.

Love from www.dictionary.com

if i say i love you, which love do you think im talking abt?

imagine being slapped back to reality.

if you don't know how it feels like...let me tell you.

it hurts.

im writing christmas cards!

and i just wrote the one for the best friend.

and guilt struck.

SIGH!

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart but please don’t take it
Love was made for me and you

on a sidenote, december's d time to nua arnd. the weather is perfect for nuaing, and nothing else. its d lesson i've to relearn every december.

OH.. and thats my fave song of the moment..not hints that im in some form of weird relationship that is not.....presentable.

WELL.....my hoodie came!

along with guilt that will probably last me for a lifetime.

i feel like a liability. as someone put it...bratty? omg. kill me. the guilt is eating me up.

but the hoodie is nice n i love it! love love it!

thank you! thank you very much!

im gonna be indebted for life.

i had a stayover last night.
to be more accurate, i housed 3 souls in my house last night.

and i've my top 5 fave moments....no rank whatsoever.

1. Kalyn going "i'm so fat!" and then reaching out for her glass of coke. (this was observed by chinggggg who wondered this out loud. nice. )

2. While watching Lord of The Rings, mabel leong went "you mean this isn't based on a true story?" (CLASSIC)

3. Watching ching and mabel leong attempt to hula hoop. (should count as 2..but.....they'r too amusing. one shakes everywhere..one does not shake at all)

4. Mabel leong wanting to lie on my feet. (For what, i've no idea. but she really wanted. weirdo. )

5. Ching exclaiming "i can monkey bar like a monkey!" ('cept that monkeys do not climb monkey bars)

i hate second guessing.

im getting sick of it too.

while charging the stupid nano, i decided to bring the world's attention to my cousins!

the pretty background is from far east. the benches opp guardian! and we were happily posing, while our cameraman snapped our pics...

thennnnnn.....the unglam side sets in..and we decided to just kiao-ka. but of cos, my cousin still has to look darn cool and suave even when he's just...plain unglam. ahh well, the perils of being my cousin.

lionel `- x G [ lil one says:
you always have cravings

lionel `- x G [ lil one says:
are you pregnant?

I DON'T LIKE LIONEL. says:
.................

I DON'T LIKE LIONEL. says:
yes i am.

yes, world.
i am pregnant.
does this explain my cravings?
if it doesn't, go roll away.

in a world where the perfect is ideal..
my family waits to be annihilated.

in the world where lies and facades are abundant..
my family is 1st in line.

in the world without mercy..
my family crushes and dies.
all of us.