okay...to thank those who decided to be extremely sweet......

this is the stash of (junk) food from sammi n lump!

basically, there's lk..10 huge pkts of chips, 20 pocky, hello panda, 4 bars of choc (out of which 3 are cadbury family bars), 3 cups of bee bee, a huge pack mamee maggi, a bag of marshmallows, 3(?) bags of mallow blasts, a bag of hersheys kisses, a bag of freddos, 4 small haribos, 2 chocolate coated marshmallow (which made me d happiest since i was trying to buy them), 2 boxes of cornflakes...and...yeah...exhaustive list..but not ending yet..

actually, i'm not half as skinny as i look in the pic. it's just a damn wrong angle. i was shocked at the absurdity of recieving junk food for my bday. as if that's not crazy enuf, i've a trunk (& 2 plastic bags) of junk food.

not that i'm complaining. the junk food happens to be the junk i love. lurveeee. true love. when you know that it's not good for you, and your love for it stays steadfast. sigh.

according to some ass, called tw...sammi & lump think tt i'm a cow.

and..............altho i doubt they think im a cow, i think they see me as a glutton.

but its okay! i still love you all! my best fren! and the one who wants to steal me frm my best fren! fight over me k! but well, lump tells me to love sammi more. since he was the one who bought the food. and he told me that i've no idea how much trouble he went thru just for the food. thankkkkkkk youuu! haaha... thank you sooo much!

i cannot help but laugh each time i think of the stash of food. cos its so sweet and funny. my bro concluded tt my frens think war is coming...but yeah. it really does seem tt way.

but anyhow... thank you! to those 3 who appeared last night with the stash and the popeye's food. -insert smug emo- i love my friends.

yeah, then todayyyy, kalyn n tw (yes, the ass who decided tt ppl think tt im a cow) bought a tiny cake for me! and it was so nice.

they lit the candle outside the MDC room, asking for a lighter..and letting everyone in the MDC room hear them shouting around for some random soul...

then came into the room, and switched off the light, so tt i can see the tiny cake with the lit candle!

soooo sweet. and they gave me some hideous elmo balloon. okay, it's not hideous. just.....................too cute for me.

and in doing so, i think the world now knows that i spent my bday studying licenses in sch. LIFE. shit.

but its okay, i still love the sweet gesture! thankkk you!

anyway, to all those who care, joel chen says he wanna get thousands of helium-filled balloons for his bday. so tt he can tie them to himself, and fly home.
have u ever wondered wad dean's listers' brains consist of?

I LOVE YOU, KERSHIA WONG!

you'r lk..the moment for my bday.
thank you! for making me smile.

i know i shld be studying.

but the thin documentary from hbo is distracting, to say the least. it's enticing.

maybe it's cos of the beauty of human flaws and fallacy that is captured. of cos, there's nothing pretty about anorexics, since all you see is skin and bones.
but there's the beauty of imperfect humans. not that this sounds right, but seeing the fears and insecurities, somehow, manages to conjure up a bitter-sweet feeling.
mainly because we suffer from the exact same fears and insecurities. except tt we don't let them control us.

who in this world does not want to fit into the ideal image of the perfect body?
no one can pretend that they aren't caught up with achieving the perfect body, because everyone faces the same influences and experiences the same naggy reminder that you aren't perfect.
in fact, you're far from perfect.

maybe, we shld applaud them for their determination and drive.
for being able to keep to wad they want.
to be thin.

but then again, society lashes back at what it brought about.
anorexia & bulimia happened because of the societal craze about the perfect body that is perpretated on the runways and hollywood. (some sticks just make me feel hungry)
and society then tries to stop anorexia & bulimia from destroying women.
why attempt to fatten up someone, when you and i and everyone else with a brain know that anorexia and bulimia is a bloody mental issue.
of cos, i know that while tackling the mental issue, the health of that patient has to be nursed back.

i don't know why im ranting abt this.
maybe i'm just disturbed by the destructive power of the media and society.

i shall go order pepperoni pizza and satisfy my craving now.

exams and mugging (or the lack of) screwed my brains.

bro : what's d young of a swan?
me: ugly duckling!

[i am so smart, i cannot stand it]

dear God.

please do provide a route for me to run away.

run away from the people i've been praying for.

amen.

hello, all...meet my best fren! he's called sammi. [don't ask me why. i just like it that way]

anyhow, i've been entrusted with the task to promote him.. he wants some rich law girl who can
1) protect him in future [i don't know if he plans to rape, or be raped] and
2) let him live off in future.
actually, i think the protecting part is inconsequential. i think he just needs a girl whom he can live off.. SO TAKE NOTE.

he's a very nice person! [yes, lump. i see the disbelief on ur face. he's only mean to you cos you...remind him of himself! HAHAHAHA. okay. maybe not.]

he'll deliver tau huey and rumraisin when you'r bonkers!
really. trust me. then again, maybe it depends on the level of insanity you are at.
and the nicest part is..he'll hide the rumraisin then pop it in ur face.
you'll get nice chocos frm him too! [but i guess if you don't like choc, he won't]

he'll let you whine n bitch to him.
some ppl just aren't nice to whine to. they cut you short and tell you to face reality.
but this one will let you go on n on. n sometimes, even encourage you. quite amazing lar. [i mean..seriously..i think he's pretty well-trained if he can stand me. okay, maybe not trained. pretty...capable?]

he'll entertain you.
or your maybe sudden decisions to go visit the zoo, aka primate garden & random friends, and night safari with the slogan "spot the non-existent animals in the dark." [i don't know if he'll go to the bird park. i nv had the slightest desire to pop by that wretched place.]
and he'll entertain you while he's in there too. like the kid you see in the pic! as in..behaving lk the kid..

he'll bring you to beaches!
even if you request it in d middle of d night.
it doesn't really matter that a bit of emo blackmail was used.
what counts is the fact tt he'll bring you to beaches at night! [see this, mabel leong! grab him!]

he'll bring you to far ends of the island. [that's really all he can bring you lar, he doesn't fly a plane. he can only drive a car. wad a downer!]
far ends that include ikea, changi airport, and maybe randomly, tuas when he wanna dump you somewhere just cos you tell him that you don't lk his............school. [all that brother-brother nonsense. they'r all gays, i tell you.]
oh oh oh..he might pop by vivo tooooo.

he'll let you bully him. [i don't really like the word bully, but......... FINE! sammi. look at this n smirk]
in his own words, im d only one doing the scolding in this friendship. and he won't harbour ill feelings over it,i think. [you better don't, samuel tan.]
but he'll keep harping abt how fierce you are, and nv fail to remind you that he's abused, and oh-so-saintly-and-noble to be able to tahan you. [he abuses me emotionally]

if you think that life is fair, think again.
he's got damn nice legs. [which, i'm sad to report, are currently being destroyed by his bro. so i might need to do an update and edit this bit]
he's got the metabolism rate every girl would die for. [or at least i would. im pretending that theres no snake in him.]

but if you think God is unfair, think again!
i don't know what to do with his...........brains sometimes.

he tells you he'll buy a huge dog and train it to pounce on you.

he looks at your arms when you talk abt fats. [THIS ISN'T NICE AT ALL LAR.]

he agrees wholeheartedly and happily when you voice out your thoughts abt you being a moron. [i take back everything i said on how he's really nice.]

aiyahhhh d list goes on lar. but i think this bloody post is the longest i've EVERRRRRRRRR blogged. my goodness. just fer you, sammi.

and to clear all doubts, my best fren is actually older than 7. or wadever age that lil kid was when the pic was taken. [he was so cute. sooooo cute.] i aint no deluded pedo lar. kids can't drive nor stay up late.

here's the best fren now:

quite smart ah! i told you God's fair.

anyhow...

to sammi: you can pretend you read this on ur bday k! happpppy birthday!

oh oh! he wanted me to add this in. "even tho my best fren hates horror show, he woke up at 10 am, despite slping at 6 am, to eat macs breakfast with me, then caught final call, which is a dumb horror show, with me" [okay, i admit. i embellished the statement. but only a tad!]
AND HIS IC GOT CHECKED FOR A NC-16 SHOW!

you're very very much appreciated, sammi!
don't die before me k!

because kershia misunderstood that roy is my best fren..

and because the real best fren said im a lousy blogger who mislead ppl...

my best fren is TAN YAN SHAO SAMUEL.

preferably known as sammi.

i don't think i can protect the identity of this friend. i mean...my new phone's cam (SHOW OFF SHOW OFF) happens to be damn clear. well, for simplicity's sake, lets call her jasmine's sis.

imagine - ur sis waited for u at the airport for 1/2 hr and welcomed you with a welcome note (altho its written at the back of her lect notes...and is in actual fact, half-done), u'd prob drown her with ur love.

imagine - ur sis blowing up dozens of balloons for you, listening to you whine, stayed up the whole night to prepare a surprise for you, u'd prob smother her with ur hugs. (actually, im not sure if it's the same sister...but i suspect it is)

well...that's jasmine's sis. she's quite a sweet soul. really. she does really sweet things that would make people smile. (jasmine. appreciate her.)

BUT as we all know, there are ALWAYS many facets to someone.

so as much as jasmine's sis is sweet, she is one heck of a.... (i can't find a word)

when jasmine's sis is driving...she spews..okay, peppers, her sentences with..colourful nouns. (are vulgarities nouns?)
an example would be "ta ma de, what is that guy trying to do?"
another example would be "ehhhh FUCK! FUCK FUCK FUCK!" (okay, i doubt thats a noun.)

and when jasmine's sis drives, she likes to talk to cars. or maybe the drivers, in their cars. (do not doubt her intelligence. she is AWARE that they cannot hear her).
doubt her sanity.

and jasmine's sis likes to pretend that she is demure. honestly, wearing a pink dress with a mustard (is there such a colour? such things look better on hotdogs anyway) sweater REALLY does make her look demure. demure and girly.
but she spoilt it all the moment she told someone to shut up.
THEN she proceeded to exclaim to the world at large that she is, in fact, a nice little girl.
i really liked the contradictory action and declaration.

jasmine's sis is damnnnnnnn random. really seriously damn random. she's so random. but i like her random-ness. cos her lil random comments make me happy. unlike some other random random-ness, which only constitute as a fleeting moment in life.

n jasmine's sis is funny. you can't really determine and agree with this unless you know her. i mean, whoever bursts into a room and poses with a half-done welcome note written on the back of HER LECTURE NOTES?
(look...we could say that she studies, i mean..she has her lecture notes with her at the airport..but..............is that how she uses her lecture notes? tsk! so much for studying ahhhhhh)

n ppl are JEALOUS of me cos i'm jasmine's sister's friend. *SMIRK*

i love you, kalyn! (sorry, i mean, there really wasn't a neeed to hide ur identity. u look so gleeful! not like the hiding ninja who acts mysterious!)

i changed my number!

roy - messed up with all that re-wiring going on, but it's settling down. says:
hahaha... i memorise your that number for 4 years leh...
sentimental value siah.

SEE THAT, BEST FRIEND?

i've got one sentimental friend! yay!

i said i wanna hibernate.

and really, it is nice & in fact, extremely therapeutic, to just lie on ur bed, look at the rain n snuggle underneath the comforter.

trust me. go try it out.

you'll be d happiest person on earth.

if only i'm not trying to worm out of an appointment, not thinking of the deadline set in school tmr, and not thinking abt anatolia and the bbq chicken.

i could be the happiest person on earth.

im a bit impatient. heck. im not patient. in d least bit.

so no prize for guessing that i hate waiting.

waiting for anything.

im sick & tired. maybe its just the lack of slp. but maybe, it's really gg to stop.

i swear, by 2007, it should.

on a side note, i really am sick & tired. as in, literally i hope i've some prince who would whisk me off to some random nice swing n let me swing there. a knight will do too.

current addiction: nickelback - far away.

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go

today, i met a madman on the bus. (and to quote mabel leong..i really do "have such luck".)

i laughed at him. cos the things he said were pretty funny. he talked abt 911 certificate, and how important it is. he talked abt goh chok tong. he talked abt some kid and his bro as they walked up the stairs. he talked abt some man's wife when the man appeared. and he said hi to unknown entities outside d bus, waved n pointed at his new invisible friends.

but maybe, all he wanted was to get people to care abt him. cos at the end of it all, as he left, he said "bye. i love you too."

maybe, in this world, all of us are so caught up in our tiny bubbles, that all we do is to turn our backs on people who really need our help.

maybe, in this world, all that is lacking is a bit more attention from everyone. if bush paid attention to iraq,rather than his popularity, the iraq war might not be so disastrous. (but im lying. cos all wars don't bring any good end.)

maybe, in this world, if everyone got the attention they needed, there wouldn't be so many deaths (read: suicide).

but the attention given to people now rarely mean anything. smiling and nodding at wad one says doesn't necessarily mean that attention is given and that there's understanding.

heck, that smiley ass might not even be listening.

afterall, this world is largely superficial and shallow.

well, i shld rename this blog a chapalang blog.
cos in my own words..there is no point blogging abt deep & insightful stuff..people need frivolity in their lives.

and so, i guess, there's where my importance lies! i bring joy. somehow.

i rem some random entry from some random person that said she would die from sweetness.

well, i don't know how she'll die.

but i like the little acts that mean a lot in my life.

not my little acts, but someone's little acts. hahahahaha.

not that im gonna die from sweetness tho.

in my very superficial world, i realised that sometimes, the smallest gestures are the sweetest ones.

i'm really thankful for the friends i have. maybe i shld really do a lil shout out to everyone. but somehow...it doesn't seem right to give lil shout outs. i need to do more than that.

i know for a fact...that most ppl treat me a lot better than i treat them. i mean, i would like to pretend that it's not true, but the picture i face with is really painted differently. not that i'm complaining. it's not bad to have ppl treating me nicely.

and i really do appreciate each and everyone. i dunno if the person who inspired this will read this (i highly doubt so. since he doesn't konw abt this.haha) but still...thanks.

thanks to all of you. because each and every one of you made my day at different times for different reasons.

and in kalyn's words..much love.

hi friends.

i decided to apologise to those who have seen my extremely vulgar side recently.
it's cos of the lack of slp.
i'm really, honestly, terribly sorry about this.
i swear..i'll try my best to be less vulgar.

i still love u!
i hope u love me toooo!

jing.

hi friends.

i decided to apologise to those who have seen my extremely vulgar side recently.
it's cos of the lack of slp.
i'm really, honestly, terribly sorry about this.
i swear..i'll try my best to be less vulgar.

i still love u!
i hope u love me toooo!

jing.