all i can hope for now is that a time warp will happen. my sci-fi fantasy will send me into may 2005 or maybe when i'm a lil kid in yr 1988, and let me stay there. i'll live my entire life in tt time warp. and since im so happy dreaming, i want kwan sang woo to be there too.

i don't want to start school. aft so many months of blisshood (a.k.a parasitehood), i'm proud to announce that i'm VERY addicted to a life like that. slp as and when i want. eat as and when i want. shop as and when i want. tt was wad my life wad abt for the past few months and really, that's wad life shld be abt, anyway. can't believe that i'm actually gg to start sch again. and of cux..wad's more unbelivable and irritating is the fact that after i felt so happy that i'm not gg to have lessons on fridays, i found an email from some professor telling me tt the professors all felt tt they shld spread our lessons thruout the week to lesson the workload, so.....i'm gg to have lessons on fris. i've no idea how having lessons on tues n fris instead of mons n thurs will lessen my workload..cox the lessons'll still be the same. just during a diff time. great deal of decreasing of workload it does. and of course, it doesn't help that even before sch started, i'm given assignments. yeah. BEFORE sch starts. quick. someone stabs me before i die frm making other stupid decisions. like, maybe to mug my life away once school starts. no wait, let me change that. to mug my life away BEFORE sch starts.

besides, i've to add that i was duped into orientation. yes. duped. cheated. stupid conniving asses (half quoted frm lump). of course, not that lump consoled me while i whined abt being cheated. but at least she made it funny. i was cheated. by the ppl whom i'm supposed to run to for help in case i meet some probs in sch. really ppl. kill me. just. let me die now. end my pain here. before i'm tortured in sch and end up morphing into a freakzoid with glasses thick enuf to fight with the textbooks who spouts some random sentence out of nowhere. i can feel the transformation happening already. oh.................

horroscope

horror-scope for saggis today.


Generosity and excess are a dangerous pair of qualities to tote around, and it takes a special kind of person to do it. Those are your burdens. For the most part, you're up for the challenge, and happy about it, too. Still, you really should ensure that everyone you're so very kind to appreciates what you're doing, and that they're not just taking you for granted. You should also take just a little while now to spoil yourself, simply because it's time.


how very apt.

maybe if i stay away from the com and the phone, i'll fade into darkness. maybe if i holed myself up, i'll be erased. maybe all i need is a clone. at least that can comfort me. i live. or rather, i lived.

im such a big softie. i actually cried reading d book. half-blood prince. yeah im sure. sob sob.

i think this harry potter is a lot better than the order of phoenix. tt was boring and naggy. this is exciting n tense. yeah. so wad if i only started reading this morn. woooo! can't wait to finish reading it. on a sidenote, glad tt i finally met my pri sch fren. haha..finally.

i'm sure those who read the sunday times yesterday would have seen the article on sg bloggers conference or wadever. and if you actually bothered paying attention to such silly things (like what i did), you'd have read abt the hunkiest blogger. some guy..who supposedly likes to live dangerously. and st's evidence of tt? he continues his blog despite his teacher wanting him to shut it down 1.5 yrs back due to some offensive remark or comment or wadever. oh yeah. how dangerous indeed. you mean if he didn't listen to his teacher and shut it down, he'll get expelled? or will he die from some curse tt his petty teacher tries to perform upon him? or will his guilt just swallow him up and cause him to commit suicide? so if continuing a blog despite certain narrow-minded idiots makes one lead a dangerous life, or so to quote, then i suppose sarong party girl is one heck of a dare-devil. well, afterall, half d nation's dissing her and insulting her and insisting tt she closes her blog or just comply to their wants, she still continues living in her own way. yeah, and all this big hoo-ha just because of a nation newspaper which insists on reporting on how her pics posted online are offensive. of cux, if half d nation consists of discerning readers and know how to laugh at things,this probably wouldn't happen. but no. half the nation decides tt the pics might lead to some kids getting addicted to pornography. half the nation feels that the pics reveals her decadent lifestyle, and in turn, reflect on how decadent singapore is. yeah. afterall, we decided tt d only reason why the no. of AIDS patients increased was due to the gay party. incidentally, that half of the nation just happens to be those who think that hugging and displaying affection in public is a big no-no. not the correct way to love? tell that to tom cruise and katie holmes. just cox you keep your affections in ur bedroom doesn't mean tt ppl are not spontaneous. moral bigots. go be a hermit and you won't be affected by all these.

maybe im just being paranoid. but you can't blame me for the lack of trust i've in you. you can't. cox i trusted you with all my life.

my cousin was reading a passage frm a Christianity-related book and praying while doing so today. he locked the room so that he could do so quietly and without distractions. all i did was to keep knocking (cox my phone was in tt room), and he had no choice, but to stop and let me in. i felt so guilty. i felt so bad. the weight in my heart was so heavy. probably cox i disrupted his quiet time with God, and i did so just because i want to. stupid aint it.

and it's prob because i never ever did the same thing for God. i know there really isn't a need for me to compare. but i felt bad all d same.

ugh. london won the bid to host the 2012 olympics. darn. i was rooting for paris.

and i don't understand why there's a campaign to eradicate poverty. it will stay. there is no way to remove it. it's harsh and it's only my opinion, but it is here to stay. you can try making life more bearable for ppl living in poverty-stricken places, but there is no way in trying to achieve the ideal world where poverty is history, or so to quote frm various stars. come on. it's a simple and realistic FACT. poverty will not disappear. it is here. and it always will be. it's only up to ppl as to whether or not they see it, and if they have enough compassion to help out. help to make life better. not to let poverty be history. grow up. stop living in a fantasy. poverty existed years ago. it existed way back in the 16th century. n it still exists in the 21st century. ppl say they'r trying to fight it and make it history, but all this talk only happen to reflect a sadder truth. the gap is widening. compare, say african kids dying frm malnuitrition cox they've no food, and lindsay lohan's disappearing frame cox she doesn't want to have food. sad, aint it?

i miss nana.

i miss stoning.

i miss bathing aft pe.

i miss sauntering arnd sch.

i miss sitting arnd aimlessly.

i miss falling aslp during lessons.

i miss lying on d bench just outside class.

i miss walking in the wrong direction after recess.

i miss saying hi to everyone i know when i'm lazing arnd.

i miss school life. surprisingly.

just a thought. those who try their very best not to judge, always end up being d ones judging. just that some don't spout it out.