either that, or i'm just unwilling to read the blog properly, cos i don't want to slow down and grab every single detail tt is meted out. if it's the latter, and sometimes, i suspect it is, then i'm in trouble. haha. well, at least that's my opinion. that means i'm moving too fast. and it isn't good to move too fast, even if this society speeds past you. the politics that are changing hands so quickly. imagine, one day, china's angry at japan for snubbing them. the nx day, japan's being snubbed by them. maybe that's y lump's dentist (elliot) told her that her lawyer friends all ended up opening sandwich bars. the world is just changing too fast.
it's so difficult to keep up. it's so difficult to just stick to your present skills and be satisfied. maybe that is why ppl are always moving on frantically. moving on in order to find a new set of skills, new knowledge and new information that will help them now or in the future. no looking back to reflect, only forward to create. maybe that is why i'm speeding now. because i don't want to be left behind. if you were a little girl, would you rather be walking behind your parents in a mall and fear being left alone, or be the one stomping arnd in front of them to make sure that they'r always behind you and are with you? it's not abt winning others, it's more like fearing to be eliminated. maybe that was why the lawyers went to open sandwich bars. cos if they remained, they know that one day, they might be rendered useless. so, might as well ditch them before they ditch you, right? the speed in life cuts you from everyone, doesn't it? i mean, speed's even stopping me from reading abt a long day in someone's life, let alone hearing it from them. if i don't even want to read, and it can be done in 5 mins, how could i ever EVER sit down and listen?
read this book which lump lent me, i forgot the title already, but it spoke about how some people HAVE to move fast. which means, they have to fill their lives with activities to make them feel wanted, and important. they would rather not sleep and clog their days with every single job that is available just to prove that they're not obsolete. and then, they neglect their family and friends. and they forget abt the love that is present. they forget to love, and to recieve love. they forget one important message from the Bible. which is to love. they forget to live in Jesus' name. that is why i'm trying so hard not to be busy, or act lk i'm busy. i'm trying to get to my friends again. i miss them.
by the way, i concluded that next time, i don't want people reading my entries, i'll make my entries long with super tiny font. just like the one i just typed.