i think i just pissed someone off. because i said no. i feel bad, i do. but i actually do feel good as well. such an irony, isn't it? i feel as if i'm finally living for myself. i know, this is trivial n stuff, but hey, i'm not making decisions based on how others feel, but what i think. that's a 1st. maybe some ppl think that i've always been doing so. that i've always been that much of a bitch, doing what I want not NEVER what others want. let me correct that. every decision i make, i consider many things. haha..yeah. i do. oh well. i feel good! tho lump n i decided to sleep off our gym date. it's okay, lump! there'r lots of opportunities! ahhh..the exhilaration of living for yourself. feels darn good.