some things nv change. and i think it's time for me to realise that it will NEVER change no matter how hard i try. but this is not the reason for my heavy mood. i just can't figure out why i feel so down. im not even sad. im just down.

on a side note, tho' def not happier, i don't mind dying young. its d 2nd day of the new yr. and all i see frm news happen to be abt more deaths frm bird flu, flash flood, bushfire, beheading of soldiers etc. so, tell me a reason why i shld try and live a long life!