i need

someone who feels and cares for me. someone to actually stand up for me. someone who understands what exactly is going through my mind and is concerned enough to march up to me, make me talk and make me cry. all i need is a friend. a friend who cares. i admit that the absence of such extreme act is my fault. i don't talk to people when im sad. and no one is psychic anyway. who, on this earth, will have an inkling about when i go all moody and emo? if that person exists, i shall marry that person immediately. regardless of gender. besides, i probably give the impression that i'm fierce, independent and utterly unbreakable, and to make things worse, i pobably encourage that mindset. i refuse to appear vulnerable nor fragile. i do not cry in front of people, and keep mum about whats bothering me. i built up this wall sub-consciously and now i realised that i have absolutely no idea how to break out of it. so, my blog is sad. i sound all depressed and melancholic. and i do not have an explanation as to why im so sad. i know why i am, but i highly doubt i'll be telling anyone soon. maybe, sub-consciously, im telling myself to be sad. who knows.