my heart aches each time i think abt you.

the pain rids me of my smile.
it reveals the cruelty of life.

the pain swallows my hope.
it does not allow me to dream.

the pain destroyes my ideals.
it reminds me that i'm powerless.

i dont think you'll see this. but my heart aches.
n i'd rather mope around than to forget you and start smiling.

i shld just fucking live with it.

i feel stupid.

i feel amazed n stupid.

who the hell can whine that she's tired and end up watching some stupid drama till this time of the morning. gosh.

if im a hobbit, i want a friend lk samwise gamgee.
actually..it doesn't matter.
i want a friend lk samwise gamgee whether or not im a hobbit.

i am such a stupid spoilt brat!

the following convo took place.

dad: wad do u want for dinner?

me: fish porridge!

several many many many minutes later....

daddy: eh they don't have fish porridge at chomp chomp.you don't want anything other than fish porridge?

me: WHY DO U ALWAYS DO THIS TO ME! SEE LARR..ALWAYS DEPRIVE ME OF MY FISH PORRIDGE.

daddy: aiyah okay okayyy..i'll go and find ur fish porridge lar..i'll go dig around..

me: no! u'r using tactics to make me feel guilty right! u evil!

daddy: hahahahahahaha....okay okay..i'll go find fish porridge for u...somewhere.

I LOVE MY DADDYYYYYY.

I WANT A HOUSE WITH A SWING. PRONTO.

yays! i got a new blog layout! its so pretty! i think it'd make a good tattoo design.

anyhowwww.......this layout is changed by izzy! yayyy. my resident blog-template-modifier. hhahahh. thank you! so i got a lil thing for u.

thank you! u'r very much appreciated!

im convinced that there's bad fengshui at my house. all d fishys are dying one by one. and they'r dying on a daily basis. goodness. and my parents dont even feed them. they FORGET to feed the fishys they bought.

maybe its just fishys...just their luck not to be able to bark for food or make any sort of noise.
stupid dying fishys.

i don't happen to like death that much. not even for lil cannibalistic fishys. esp not in my hse.

it's as if the fishys in the tank are involved in a "survivor" game of their own.
i shall take a pic of the last surviving fishy, just before it dies.
just to give it the recognition it deserves for battling lousy fengshui.

i watched jasmine women. and i'm disturbed. thoroughly. i don't know why tho. the images are too.....loud. and altho i dun lk zhang ziyi, i think she's a good actress. my puny brain is trying to figure out the issues in d show.

by the way, i really need a new brain. i...

1. could not construct a sentence properly and hold a normal conversation during dinner.
2. could not differentiate between left and right when giving directions to my place.

i think my puny brain is overworked. or it overslept.

Let me tell you what addiction is.

Addiction is watching a Korean show till 6 am, and then waking at 2pm to continue watching the show. And still watching the show even though I am groggy and my puny brain is telling me to go to bed. And it becomes so bad that I have to move around the living room to stay awake and alert, with my eyes on the screen to ensure I don't miss any second of the show.

This is addiction.

But anyhow, I managed to come up with some theories while dealing with my addiction! Well, if you wanna know about my theories, hang around online when I watch my dramas. I might let you know about my obscure theories that are actually pretty "duh!"

HAIYAHS! I like the skinny skinny, tall tall prince with tiny tiny eyes in the show. Although, I think he is actually quite ugly. Life!

I like watching Korean shows and think about my imaginary love life.
They remind me that love destroys.

I need to know more things that would bring a sweet, lingering smile on my face that would warm my heart.

Then again, I don’t want to know those things. I want those things to happen to me.

I was asked if it’s better never to experience heartbreak than to have one heart-wrenching relationship. Good job, angie. Nice question to ask me just before I embark on my Korean show marathon. Hahahaha. No answer. No answer at all.

The answer is obvious. But I don’t do what I think I should. I never do what I should.

My puny brain is dying.

met jiehui. and realised many things!

1.

one friend of mine......is so selfish she doesn't want to have kids because she'd rather spend money on herself. no prizes guessing which fren.

2.

i am easily victimised. i nv knew i could be stopped so many times along orchard. i am so easily bullied.

3.

there is a look for nus's arts and social sciences. i happen to have that look.

4.

the shocked faces given when i clarified tell me that i look too dumb to be there.

5.

i cannot help but look at shoes. its not within my control.

there are many more things. but i just dun feel lk listing them. anyhow...i was stopped so many times. n i thought i managed to siam them successfully..only to find those ppl popping up frm the other side cos they realised i was changing my route. asses. and to think i was so smug that im smart. bleahs.

i was packing my wardrobe..then i found one t-shirt that was a gift. it was a present that izzy and apple drew for my birthday.

i love the shirt so much. it makes me smile!

i miss them so much.

i need to go back to mjc.

omgggg. i just watched a damn wrong show. some stupid taiwanese variety show just said that 48kg means that someone is very fat. and the person they were talking abt..was someone who is TALL.

WTF! n to think i wondered why ppl turn anorexic and bulimic!

what is so attractive about looking lk a skeleton?

48 kg! omgggggg. i cannot go to taiwan. i'll be damn overweight there.

i think she is damnnnn hot. nicole (something...its too long) from pcd. hooooot.

i hate it when everyone says "yay okay. lets do it!" then suddenly go "oh sorry. im not free."

i am not talking abt anyone in particular.

i am obviously guilty of it too.

i need new friends.

my dad is stupid. period.

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image. On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex. You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time. Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

What Donut Are You?

this is soooo apt.

so d day i decide to read the newspapers is the day i think the singapore rallies is stupid.

honestly, i don't think insulting someone's place is a very smart tactic to use. "aljunied will become a dismal place like hougang."

well, smart. i know eric low thinks he can save us and let us cease being dismal. and probably the rest of the PAP think that hougang cannot be saved anyhow. (well, this is wad i get frm george yeo's statement)

but im happy being dismal.

in fact, i think it's only cos hougang is dismal..that is y bukit timah looks so glam. cos we've no money since money is used by the state for something else. perhaps filling holes in the road.

and yes. dominant PAP is our key to success. kiss my ass.

dear kershyaaaa found icons that scream my name: