stupidity personified.

i really find it amazing that ppl think im hard-hearted, cruel and uncaring. because i ALWAYS end up in situations where i do things out of pure obligations or crudely put, out of pity/sympathy/guilt/allkindsofemotionalblackmail.

and each time such situations occur, and i assure you, there are plenty in my life, i end up fulfilling that particular obligation and put myself through endless (well, at least till i get home) torture.

the mental torture of knowing that i was too fucking stupid/soft/weak/indecisive/loser to say no.
the physical torture of knowing that i would be so much happier at home or wherever i wanna be.
the pure torture of doing what i don't wanna do and not being able to do what i want.

ugh.

i am stupidity personified.
wear me on ur shirt.