stupidity.

i feel stupid. because of you.

don't come up to me and tell me now that studying in law doesn't give me a future. then tell me that since school just started, i can just change faculty now. i just bought the books. the books tt cost a bomb. i'm in law and i'm going to finish it. i'm going to finish it and manage a career to show you that being a legal advisor is not all that bad afterall. don't tell me that i can choose to go FASS to major in econs or to go Biz Ad. i've nothing against both. i just don't relish the idea of having such a general degree. then end up not using what i learnt in my uni years at all. i've already put myself thru years of integration and differentiation. if i choose to do something unlaw after law, at least i know that what i learn in law is extremely useful to me in whatever i do next time.

don't keep telling me that i've made the wrong choice. you've been telling me this when i said i wanted to do communication studies. "wrong choice. saturated market." tell me which market in singapore isn't saturated. tell me which one? why do you keep saying that i've made the wrong choice? what's so good about having a FASS or Biz Ad degree? because they're general and flexible? but i don't want flexibility. i want to learn something useful. something that is actually worth learning. no offense, but i don't like it. every choice i made is wrong to you. yes. i did put law down as a joke. but i got in. and i chose to enter law. so live with it. at least i know that i made this choice. and didn't alter it according to your wishes.

i know you care for me. thank you. but there're still things that i don't need to hear from you. and i mean never. i live with my choices. you can choose to accept it or ignore it. just don't tell me such errant bullshit. because i don't buy it.

oh look! another useless sentence in the book! (refer to previous post) all within 10 mins. smartttt.

"depending on the situation, rule proof and rule application can be very short, very long, or somewhere in between"pg 111

"The law does not create rules for the fun of it" pg 102 'legal reasoning and legal writing' by neumann.

what an inspiring thought. what an enlightenment. the one sentence that just cleared up the mess in my head. law is serious. everyone who reads this entry shall, from now on, be aware that law is not fluff. law isn't all that cloudy stuff that just pops into the judges' minds while they munch on lays potato chips. no judge will be snacking and then suddenly say "hey! i should write a law about defamation! just in case someone comes along and starts labelling me as a fat loser, i've a rule on my side that will help me win a case against that guy!!" law isn't interesting. no matter how silly the case seems, there'll always be that oh-so-serious rule that will drag us back to reality and remind us that law is not fun. it's law. it's serious.

that line from my textbook helped me this much. in realising that law is serious. (like who the heck didn't know that). i hope it helped you too. oh yeah. to all those deluded souls who aspire to study law, and want to buy their own textbooks, this is how useful the textbook is. all for a grand sum of $70+++.

please do not take me seriously. i was joking. i love law. love it to bits. even though i'm falling aslp for all my lectures. attending tutorials with an empty mind. and struggling with all the assignments, readings and what-have-yous. i love law. though it's killing me. killing me softly!!!! i see myself dying a slow, painful, horrible death.

vs is gg to be a co-ed sch?!? lk wad. i mean..this is destroying the entire sch culture. it's lk cedar admitting guys in. i dun lk the idea. cox i think vs guys actually do have this..i dunno..aura? haha..this behaviour and attitude that differentiates them frm the others. i do not lk the sch. but i detest the idea of them turning into co-ed. how gross. destroying the sch. ridiculous. no wonder the vs ppl, ex and current, are making so much noise abt it. such stupid decisions ppl make. ugh. poor vs. i hope this stupid idea doesn't pull thru.

well, one thing i dun understand, is how assignments will be given without deep, insightful explanation of how it shld be done. i mean, if i know how to write a case summary, i wouldn't be in d class now, would i?

well..just back from the corrine may concert. man. she's so talented. tt $25 i paid was, in my opinion, way underpriced. i felt as if i was there for a $250 performance. haha..okay. maybe not THAT ex, but it was that good. really fantastic. i'm so glad i went. n i took so many pics of her. tho i did end up taking a pic of someone's chest..but..its okay. i still took pics of corrine may. she's pretty! hahah..and talented! and then, some guy took pics of us taking pics of corrine may. haha..cool. of cux, i still think lump shld have shouted "corrine corrine" so tt i could take a nice pic of her face, but..nvm. hahaha..our plan to pretend to be her friends. hahaha...anyway, to those poor kids who missed her concert...YOU SUCKERS. you shld have went. really.

I'M FRIENDLESS IN MY TUTORIAL GROUP. DAMN IT.

well..since im free now and not too tired, i decided to talk abt orientation. haha..not that it was extremely fun, but it's not entirely stupid and useless either. i mean, i did meet the peeps. not that i know all of them, but hey, at least i manage to find some nice souls who r willing to hear me whine all day long. hahaha..okay. maybe its just tt they haven't spent enuf time with me yet to be irritated.

1st day gave me blisters. diana's shoes just killed my feet. killed them bigtime. they'r still rotting now, actually. haha..but the shoes r really nice. just another of those..pretty useless shoes..hahaha..thanks diana! as in, really thanks. for lending me the shoes so late at night. n i had to walk home bare-footed cox i really couldn't stand it.

2nd day did flag day. im not proud of this, but my tin wasn't even one-tenth filled. not that i didn't try. i did! but ppl just averted their gaze..looked at the ground and shunned us. or they just point at me and tell me tt they've already donated. no, i'm sorry, they shouted to tell me tt. i wonder why. well, luckily for me, i was with ppl whose tins weighed arnd mine. hahaha..

then it was some loser mardi gras crap which determined whether or not we get to buy 2nd hand books. and just as i expected, we were one of the last few to go in. so i decided to buy new books. oh..and i bought one 2nd hand book which was useless, and some ass decided tt i didn't pay for it, cox its not signed, and brought me to 2 other asses. and they made me stand there for such a long time, while the 3 morons tried to figure out wads wrong. was it tt i didn't pay? or was it tt i dun want to pay? yeah. they nv tot that they were at fault. tt they didn't record down and didn't sign. the idea of them screwing up and not being efficient NEVER EVER occured to them. so they had to piss me off till i ended up shouting at them. i didn't want to. but my emotions overpowered my senses. what the fuck is wrong with them anyway.

intro lect n beach bash. lect was pure bullshit, but it made me realise tt i better slp early frm now on, else i'll have a really difficult time struggling to stay awake. beach bash. well. not tt i took part in the games v enthusiatically, but it was quite fun, i guess. haha..the highlight was, obviously, the pretty boys segment. they'r draggies. and boy, are they skanky. goodness. so crude k. hahaha..but funny, nonetheless. oh well. think i shld change. time for me to change.

oh..and i realise tt a lot of ppl in law look lk sammi. only..maybe not a lot. just 2. but..in one fac, one small fac of 200 ppl, and 2 look lk sammi. who's d one with the common face man..and, angie! i'll try to help u spot some hairy legs k! haha..okay. gonna be late ltr..damn.

all i can hope for now is that a time warp will happen. my sci-fi fantasy will send me into may 2005 or maybe when i'm a lil kid in yr 1988, and let me stay there. i'll live my entire life in tt time warp. and since im so happy dreaming, i want kwan sang woo to be there too.

i don't want to start school. aft so many months of blisshood (a.k.a parasitehood), i'm proud to announce that i'm VERY addicted to a life like that. slp as and when i want. eat as and when i want. shop as and when i want. tt was wad my life wad abt for the past few months and really, that's wad life shld be abt, anyway. can't believe that i'm actually gg to start sch again. and of cux..wad's more unbelivable and irritating is the fact that after i felt so happy that i'm not gg to have lessons on fridays, i found an email from some professor telling me tt the professors all felt tt they shld spread our lessons thruout the week to lesson the workload, so.....i'm gg to have lessons on fris. i've no idea how having lessons on tues n fris instead of mons n thurs will lessen my workload..cox the lessons'll still be the same. just during a diff time. great deal of decreasing of workload it does. and of course, it doesn't help that even before sch started, i'm given assignments. yeah. BEFORE sch starts. quick. someone stabs me before i die frm making other stupid decisions. like, maybe to mug my life away once school starts. no wait, let me change that. to mug my life away BEFORE sch starts.

besides, i've to add that i was duped into orientation. yes. duped. cheated. stupid conniving asses (half quoted frm lump). of course, not that lump consoled me while i whined abt being cheated. but at least she made it funny. i was cheated. by the ppl whom i'm supposed to run to for help in case i meet some probs in sch. really ppl. kill me. just. let me die now. end my pain here. before i'm tortured in sch and end up morphing into a freakzoid with glasses thick enuf to fight with the textbooks who spouts some random sentence out of nowhere. i can feel the transformation happening already. oh.................

horroscope

horror-scope for saggis today.


Generosity and excess are a dangerous pair of qualities to tote around, and it takes a special kind of person to do it. Those are your burdens. For the most part, you're up for the challenge, and happy about it, too. Still, you really should ensure that everyone you're so very kind to appreciates what you're doing, and that they're not just taking you for granted. You should also take just a little while now to spoil yourself, simply because it's time.


how very apt.

maybe if i stay away from the com and the phone, i'll fade into darkness. maybe if i holed myself up, i'll be erased. maybe all i need is a clone. at least that can comfort me. i live. or rather, i lived.

im such a big softie. i actually cried reading d book. half-blood prince. yeah im sure. sob sob.

i think this harry potter is a lot better than the order of phoenix. tt was boring and naggy. this is exciting n tense. yeah. so wad if i only started reading this morn. woooo! can't wait to finish reading it. on a sidenote, glad tt i finally met my pri sch fren. haha..finally.

i'm sure those who read the sunday times yesterday would have seen the article on sg bloggers conference or wadever. and if you actually bothered paying attention to such silly things (like what i did), you'd have read abt the hunkiest blogger. some guy..who supposedly likes to live dangerously. and st's evidence of tt? he continues his blog despite his teacher wanting him to shut it down 1.5 yrs back due to some offensive remark or comment or wadever. oh yeah. how dangerous indeed. you mean if he didn't listen to his teacher and shut it down, he'll get expelled? or will he die from some curse tt his petty teacher tries to perform upon him? or will his guilt just swallow him up and cause him to commit suicide? so if continuing a blog despite certain narrow-minded idiots makes one lead a dangerous life, or so to quote, then i suppose sarong party girl is one heck of a dare-devil. well, afterall, half d nation's dissing her and insulting her and insisting tt she closes her blog or just comply to their wants, she still continues living in her own way. yeah, and all this big hoo-ha just because of a nation newspaper which insists on reporting on how her pics posted online are offensive. of cux, if half d nation consists of discerning readers and know how to laugh at things,this probably wouldn't happen. but no. half the nation decides tt the pics might lead to some kids getting addicted to pornography. half the nation feels that the pics reveals her decadent lifestyle, and in turn, reflect on how decadent singapore is. yeah. afterall, we decided tt d only reason why the no. of AIDS patients increased was due to the gay party. incidentally, that half of the nation just happens to be those who think that hugging and displaying affection in public is a big no-no. not the correct way to love? tell that to tom cruise and katie holmes. just cox you keep your affections in ur bedroom doesn't mean tt ppl are not spontaneous. moral bigots. go be a hermit and you won't be affected by all these.

maybe im just being paranoid. but you can't blame me for the lack of trust i've in you. you can't. cox i trusted you with all my life.

my cousin was reading a passage frm a Christianity-related book and praying while doing so today. he locked the room so that he could do so quietly and without distractions. all i did was to keep knocking (cox my phone was in tt room), and he had no choice, but to stop and let me in. i felt so guilty. i felt so bad. the weight in my heart was so heavy. probably cox i disrupted his quiet time with God, and i did so just because i want to. stupid aint it.

and it's prob because i never ever did the same thing for God. i know there really isn't a need for me to compare. but i felt bad all d same.

ugh. london won the bid to host the 2012 olympics. darn. i was rooting for paris.

and i don't understand why there's a campaign to eradicate poverty. it will stay. there is no way to remove it. it's harsh and it's only my opinion, but it is here to stay. you can try making life more bearable for ppl living in poverty-stricken places, but there is no way in trying to achieve the ideal world where poverty is history, or so to quote frm various stars. come on. it's a simple and realistic FACT. poverty will not disappear. it is here. and it always will be. it's only up to ppl as to whether or not they see it, and if they have enough compassion to help out. help to make life better. not to let poverty be history. grow up. stop living in a fantasy. poverty existed years ago. it existed way back in the 16th century. n it still exists in the 21st century. ppl say they'r trying to fight it and make it history, but all this talk only happen to reflect a sadder truth. the gap is widening. compare, say african kids dying frm malnuitrition cox they've no food, and lindsay lohan's disappearing frame cox she doesn't want to have food. sad, aint it?

i miss nana.

i miss stoning.

i miss bathing aft pe.

i miss sauntering arnd sch.

i miss sitting arnd aimlessly.

i miss falling aslp during lessons.

i miss lying on d bench just outside class.

i miss walking in the wrong direction after recess.

i miss saying hi to everyone i know when i'm lazing arnd.

i miss school life. surprisingly.

just a thought. those who try their very best not to judge, always end up being d ones judging. just that some don't spout it out.