im currently disturbed by the sudden realisation that i REALLY cannot sleep in after 12.

i'll roll around. n get up. damn. DAMN.

shit.

the constant looping of jay chou's jian dan ai is supposed to make me feel better.



i miss kershie.


i miss marie.


i guess jay chou's not as powerful as i hoped he'd be.

i was told not to think too much.

i can't.

so i arrived at a conclusion.

that what i was told was bullshit.

i like to type after i cut my nails!

it feels fun. and smooooooooth.

zidane's classic moment of behaving in a pre-historic manner.

zidane's counterparts in real pre-historic times.

stupid zidane. he shldn't have pretended that he's a dinosaur and did some role-playing in d middle of the match.

if i ever find the snapshot of that classic moment...i'll reveal zidane's desire to return to pre-historic times. woo.

italy won.

and i think thy'r not uploading zidane's pre-historic classical action.

i don't know what came over me, but i wanted to go the night safari! and i actually have friends who went with me! i love themmm. sammi got to live his childhood cos of me! and his car. hahahahaha...and lump's toe got stomped on! by sammi. that was d only casualty.

other than tt..it was pretty fine. it stank. but u know..........i was concentrating on where to step in case something jumped onto my path or something.

and altho we got lost..trying to look for
1) animals we already saw but didn't realise tt we saw them ;
2) animals that weren't along our trail ; and
3) animals that were beyond some station where we nv bothered to cross,
i liked it pretty much!

and there were mozzies. just less mozzies than the zoo!

okay. i didnt lk the part where the barn owl flew around...but i was brave! and lump agrees. go read her blog, ppl. it's www.dasweetestgoodbye.blogspot.com . she said i was brave! yayyy!

cept for the moment when i tot there was something in d grass.

and the moment when the owl performed by flying n eating. not much of a performance, i konw. but it's still considered one.

and the moment when i spotted roaches. bloody pests.

some day...i just wanna drown in my own delusions. i'll probably die the happiest then.

brazil is my fave team altho the entire world doesn't really lk them.

they'r my fave team cos they'r the only team where the players are smiling even after sprinting around for 90 minutes. even when they failed to score a goal.

they'r my fave team cos none of them have ever lost their temper. everyone else in this world cup keep losing their temper. namely, ballack.

they'r my fave team cos they have such an artistic way of playing soccer.

they'r my fave team cos they'r good.

its not just cos of kaka.
kaka is a bonus.
kaka WAS a bonus.

yayyy so i stayed up in d end..and italy won! with such beautiful goals. so beautiful.

but anyhow..i lk how klinnsman went arnd n consoled all his players altho he must be super depressed as well.

i lk klinnsman cos he looks lk my uncle who dotes on me.

i am soooo happy! yay! germany is finally gg away! i dun hate them. i just dun think they shld win italy.

i dunno if the german players are crying..cos their faces are all wet. with perspiration!

yayyyyyyy!!!!!!

this is so worth the lack of slp.

i am soooooo tired. i think my body clock's back. n im totally destroying it by watching the stupid germany-italy match.

i nv knew that soccer players get massages and star treatments.

klinnsman is one violent man. hes so involved in the game.

italy's too good for germany. n if germany wins, its cos the ref's biased. either tt....or lehmann's really good at saving goals.

the 1/2 hr extension just started...n i honestly don't think i can stay up for the entireeeeeeeeee match. age is taking its toll on me.

tell me.


do you really know me?

in law school, the only word that really jumps out is d word clique.

cos, really, nowhere else in this world can there be another place be as cliquish.

n i dun happen to lk making friends sometimes.

or rather, i tend to have few friends and some acquaintances. n the rest are just..familiar faces.

and i do not like to feel as if i've to run to someone to find a friend. all bcos im friendless.

i do not mind being friendless. i just do not want to feel vulnerable just cos i'm friendless.

brazil should realise tt popping up in front of the oppo's players n running arnd in between spaces while the oppo players pass balls around do NOT equate to a defense.

there is no defense for brazil.
let alone good defense.

but its okay...they still play prettily. not their looks, but yeahhhhhhh.

i cried.

maybe its cos i was relieved.
maybe its cos i was sad.
maybe its cos i grew up.
maybe its cos i was honest.

crying when u've a headache is suicidal.

but i smiled too.

cos i've friends.

i could choose to be bitter. or choose to stronger.
we'll see how i turn out.

im sneezing so badly that i'm certain tt someone's thinking of me.

someone is thinking of killing me.

if i continue sneezing lk tt...i'm gg to become michael jackson no. 2 aka noseless.

and i love brazil! love love love brasil. LOVE. and ronaldo's back.. hes back. altho he's prone to parking himself in front of the goalpost..he's finally back.

ake me away, away, away. says:
u're back!!!
jing says:
yah
jing says:
u miss me?
take me away, away, away. says:
haha..yeah i did!

yayyy! mabel missed me!

does admitting that i'm deluded

means that i'll stop being deluded?

decided not to watch the tunisia v. saudi game. BAD decision. the last 20 mins was good. let's just.....happily believe that it was only exciting at the end.

........
yeah right.


anyway..am watching d germany v. poland game. gosh......... they'r fighting. germ wants to win every game, and poland has to win or draw in order to proceed. hahaha!


i really must watch soccer alone, i think. i look lk some spastic, unglam kiddo. imagine jumping in front of the tv, and grabbing ur hair and.....er. okay. i shall not continue. yayyy! i love soccer. or rather..i love watching soccer!

kaka just scored! so im pretty sure brazil's gonna win. cos they'r a really strong team.

anyhow..before tt...i was told that kaka's married.
..............................................................






i am so sad. so basically..i was damnnnn devastated abt his marital status.

then the goal came along. so i was jubilant.

then i fell back into depression cos hes married. WHAT THE HELL!

i think the organisers of the world cup don't lk USA very much. that team is probably gg to lose every single match in d current grouping. ghana and italy are strong teams, although ghana needs better strikers. USA is so dead. the yanks are so not gg to win any game.


i think that soccer is a v violent game. extremely violent. i look at the players moaning on the field...and i feel their pain! i do. altho i probably never felt the extent of their pain..but i feel for them.


and i realised why the soccer players have long shorts now. its to prevent any.........exhibition of any.........organ. that must be why they wear shorts AND tt underpants tights thingy. see! now it makes sense.

to that person who happily said that czech is nowhere to be seen in d rankings of top soccer teams.....



you are DAMN wrong.

they'r prob d strongest team so far. n rosicky is good. gooooood. n they have a good goalkeeper.

but US isn't that bad lar. altho my dad concluded tt they'r kicking d ball as tho they'r playing rugby...i think johnson's pretty good. brave. hes brave.

n i read just now tt saggitarians do not mean malice even tho what they say are painful. altho the stupid horoscope kept emphasising on how saggis are not mean and evil.......it just suggests that saggis are insensitive. GREAT!

if crying empowers,
why do we hide when we cry.

is it true that no one is really indispensible in this world?

if it is true, how does this explain why some people die due to the pain of losing their loved ones?

anyhow......i miss my eye candy! the eye candy who'd take the bus w me when i was gg to mjc and he was gg to cjc. sighhhhhh....where is my eye candy! i wanna see him again!

when i'm so bloody deprived of sleep and when i just came home lugging tt fucking cable box. the very last thing you should do is snap at me. very last thing.

so the other day..actually, it was yesterday, i packed my room. and i decided to send my stuffed toys to the washing machine. while hanging them up to dry, i just had to take pictures of them. they look so....tortured. hahahahaha. i love my soft toys. i'm such a kid. anywayyy...here goes:

see! i pegged it down by its arms! can u see the panties? and the skirt? my pretty cedar bear. it's been stripped and violated, and there is photographic evidence of this behaviour that is unbearable. anyhow, i decided to return my cedar bear her modesty and dressed it up again.

i hung this tigger by its tail. and to all knowing souls who know why my mommy decided to call me stupid.....this tigger doesn't smell overwhelmingly good. actually...this tigger is pretending to be a bat. lk how the mammoth in ice age 2 thought she was an possum!

this poor elephant. with its ears pegged. well, at least if its ears become bigger, it can shade itself. HAHAHHA okay. forget it. i just wanna show how i pegged the toys with ingenuity!

i can't help but feel that the hippo is actually damnnnnn happy abt being pegged down by her arm. if u'r gonna ask why is it a her...its cos she's pink, damn it. i don't own gay hippos.

i decided to hang nemo by its fin and tail. its too huge lar. and if u'r wondering why the pictures are of different sizes, its cos i uploaded them w different sizes. live with it.

HAAHA i think this small tiny tigger is super duper cute. and although it looks lk its sniffing the sock, it's not. it's only cos i hung it upside down, and gravity pulled the sock down to the tigger's nose. my tigger doesn't smell socks.

decided to be brave today and pack my room.

it's halfdone. and im planning to leave the rest till tmr.

this is becos i'm facing a very serious problem. a question that is currently giving me a headache.


where the hell do i put my bags.

i want to be a kid again.

i only want to worry about not being able to finish my pile of sweets.

i only want to worry about not having enough time to play.

i only want to worry about how i can't kick some ball wearing some dress.

i only want to worry about how the rain might stop me from sitting on the swing.

i only want to worry about the bugs tt might attack me while i sit in the grass.

i only want to worry about when will i get to see a ripe mango falling down from the tree in my yard.

i only want to worry about being scolded for running around bare-footed.

i only want to worry about whether i'll get to eat crabs in the middle of the night.

i only want to worry about how i might miss the chance to jump on the bed.

i only want to worry about sleeping before my kid brother comes home from my aunt's place.

i only want to worry about having fun.

i only want to worry about being happy.


i am addicted to memories. or maybe, i just want to stop worrying.

someone turn me back into a kid.

i dont want to grow older.

not when it indicates that i stop having fun.

not when it brings along unnecessary worries.

not when it becomes a burden.

i don't want to be old enough to think.

i don't want to be old enough to feel.

i don't want to be old enough to worry.


help me.

help me.

please.

my heart aches each time i think abt you.

the pain rids me of my smile.
it reveals the cruelty of life.

the pain swallows my hope.
it does not allow me to dream.

the pain destroyes my ideals.
it reminds me that i'm powerless.

i dont think you'll see this. but my heart aches.
n i'd rather mope around than to forget you and start smiling.

i shld just fucking live with it.

i feel stupid.

i feel amazed n stupid.

who the hell can whine that she's tired and end up watching some stupid drama till this time of the morning. gosh.

if im a hobbit, i want a friend lk samwise gamgee.
actually..it doesn't matter.
i want a friend lk samwise gamgee whether or not im a hobbit.

i am such a stupid spoilt brat!

the following convo took place.

dad: wad do u want for dinner?

me: fish porridge!

several many many many minutes later....

daddy: eh they don't have fish porridge at chomp chomp.you don't want anything other than fish porridge?

me: WHY DO U ALWAYS DO THIS TO ME! SEE LARR..ALWAYS DEPRIVE ME OF MY FISH PORRIDGE.

daddy: aiyah okay okayyy..i'll go and find ur fish porridge lar..i'll go dig around..

me: no! u'r using tactics to make me feel guilty right! u evil!

daddy: hahahahahahaha....okay okay..i'll go find fish porridge for u...somewhere.

I LOVE MY DADDYYYYYY.

I WANT A HOUSE WITH A SWING. PRONTO.

yays! i got a new blog layout! its so pretty! i think it'd make a good tattoo design.

anyhowwww.......this layout is changed by izzy! yayyy. my resident blog-template-modifier. hhahahh. thank you! so i got a lil thing for u.

thank you! u'r very much appreciated!

im convinced that there's bad fengshui at my house. all d fishys are dying one by one. and they'r dying on a daily basis. goodness. and my parents dont even feed them. they FORGET to feed the fishys they bought.

maybe its just fishys...just their luck not to be able to bark for food or make any sort of noise.
stupid dying fishys.

i don't happen to like death that much. not even for lil cannibalistic fishys. esp not in my hse.

it's as if the fishys in the tank are involved in a "survivor" game of their own.
i shall take a pic of the last surviving fishy, just before it dies.
just to give it the recognition it deserves for battling lousy fengshui.

i watched jasmine women. and i'm disturbed. thoroughly. i don't know why tho. the images are too.....loud. and altho i dun lk zhang ziyi, i think she's a good actress. my puny brain is trying to figure out the issues in d show.

by the way, i really need a new brain. i...

1. could not construct a sentence properly and hold a normal conversation during dinner.
2. could not differentiate between left and right when giving directions to my place.

i think my puny brain is overworked. or it overslept.

Let me tell you what addiction is.

Addiction is watching a Korean show till 6 am, and then waking at 2pm to continue watching the show. And still watching the show even though I am groggy and my puny brain is telling me to go to bed. And it becomes so bad that I have to move around the living room to stay awake and alert, with my eyes on the screen to ensure I don't miss any second of the show.

This is addiction.

But anyhow, I managed to come up with some theories while dealing with my addiction! Well, if you wanna know about my theories, hang around online when I watch my dramas. I might let you know about my obscure theories that are actually pretty "duh!"

HAIYAHS! I like the skinny skinny, tall tall prince with tiny tiny eyes in the show. Although, I think he is actually quite ugly. Life!

I like watching Korean shows and think about my imaginary love life.
They remind me that love destroys.

I need to know more things that would bring a sweet, lingering smile on my face that would warm my heart.

Then again, I don’t want to know those things. I want those things to happen to me.

I was asked if it’s better never to experience heartbreak than to have one heart-wrenching relationship. Good job, angie. Nice question to ask me just before I embark on my Korean show marathon. Hahahaha. No answer. No answer at all.

The answer is obvious. But I don’t do what I think I should. I never do what I should.

My puny brain is dying.

met jiehui. and realised many things!

1.

one friend of mine......is so selfish she doesn't want to have kids because she'd rather spend money on herself. no prizes guessing which fren.

2.

i am easily victimised. i nv knew i could be stopped so many times along orchard. i am so easily bullied.

3.

there is a look for nus's arts and social sciences. i happen to have that look.

4.

the shocked faces given when i clarified tell me that i look too dumb to be there.

5.

i cannot help but look at shoes. its not within my control.

there are many more things. but i just dun feel lk listing them. anyhow...i was stopped so many times. n i thought i managed to siam them successfully..only to find those ppl popping up frm the other side cos they realised i was changing my route. asses. and to think i was so smug that im smart. bleahs.

i was packing my wardrobe..then i found one t-shirt that was a gift. it was a present that izzy and apple drew for my birthday.

i love the shirt so much. it makes me smile!

i miss them so much.

i need to go back to mjc.

omgggg. i just watched a damn wrong show. some stupid taiwanese variety show just said that 48kg means that someone is very fat. and the person they were talking abt..was someone who is TALL.

WTF! n to think i wondered why ppl turn anorexic and bulimic!

what is so attractive about looking lk a skeleton?

48 kg! omgggggg. i cannot go to taiwan. i'll be damn overweight there.

i think she is damnnnn hot. nicole (something...its too long) from pcd. hooooot.

i hate it when everyone says "yay okay. lets do it!" then suddenly go "oh sorry. im not free."

i am not talking abt anyone in particular.

i am obviously guilty of it too.

i need new friends.

my dad is stupid. period.

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image. On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex. You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time. Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

What Donut Are You?

this is soooo apt.

so d day i decide to read the newspapers is the day i think the singapore rallies is stupid.

honestly, i don't think insulting someone's place is a very smart tactic to use. "aljunied will become a dismal place like hougang."

well, smart. i know eric low thinks he can save us and let us cease being dismal. and probably the rest of the PAP think that hougang cannot be saved anyhow. (well, this is wad i get frm george yeo's statement)

but im happy being dismal.

in fact, i think it's only cos hougang is dismal..that is y bukit timah looks so glam. cos we've no money since money is used by the state for something else. perhaps filling holes in the road.

and yes. dominant PAP is our key to success. kiss my ass.

dear kershyaaaa found icons that scream my name:

I MISS YOU, KERSHYA WONG.

COME HOME NOW.

daniel ch. says:

shit im not typing whta im thinking

jing says:

no its okay.

jing says:

im surprised u think to begin with.

daniel ch. says:

thanks, i wish the fishes ate you instead

jing says:

eeyrs!

jing says:

u evil guy!

this is such a vicious world! it's so brutal! imagine the friend u whined to abt the fishys telling you that he wished the fishys ate u instead! and he knows how painful the entire episode is for me! good job, dan.

anyway..let me dedicate this post to u.
you look shy and reserved and nice.
but u turn out otherwise. you hide behind your shyness. (By the way, this term is only used exclusively, by us, on you.)
you say the weirdest stuff. or say acceptable things..in the weirdest way possible.
and you'r evil. dun tell me u'r evil to evil ppl, n nice to nice ppl. nice ppl stay nice throughout, no matter who they are talking to!
but u'r still my fren. cos u make me laugh. hahaha.

okay..due to duress, i'm here to add in more facts abt mr chan.
he's actually quite nice. after i whined abt the fishys, and he had to go offline to get his internet connection fixed. when he came back online, he actually asked if i was still sad. soo nice.

and he'll help you carry things.
when he's feeling nice.

oh, and he'll praise you!
only to shoot u down later!

he also smiles a lot and gets along well with everyone. he does.
really!

so..are u happy with this, daniel?

IM SO SAD.

the fighting fish tog with the other fishys died. the only reason why i feed them carefully..is cos i want the fighting fish to eat! BUT HES DEAD! :((((((((

and........he was eaten! :(((((((((((((

my mom said its cos i didn't feed enuf. and the starving fishys went to eat his dead body. (bloody greedy asses. how can they eat another fish! im not gg to feed them anymore!) :((((((((((((((((((((((

maybe..the fighting fish died cos he was starving since the other fishys bullied him. and i didn't feed enuf, so he couldn't eat. and then he cldn't fight for himself! he couldn't defend himself! and he had to die with only half a body! :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

i was reading lump's blog. then i realised tt i actually had 2 things on my mind to blog. so here they are:

1.
dear huay ching...wanted to prove how nice she was. so she said she'll be nice and stop bitching abt T if she graduates this year.
hooow nice! cept for the fact tt she won't graduate from law this year. she can only move on and get into yr 2.
hooooow nice.

2.
my dearest lump.......wanted to cross the road. and i told her that its raining. and she walked onto the walkway of bugis junction in order to see if it was really raining!
nothing is wrong with this, really. it makes perfect sense for anyone to do that. to walk into the rain and see if it's still raining.
however, the icing on this cake is that she walked into the walkway WITH SHELTER to see if it was raining.
i am so sure that the shelter had holes to let her check if it was raining. i ammmm soo sure. da chang jing destroys brains lar. gosh.

i think that t.t. durai deserves sympathy. look at how stressed he looks now. he probably doesn't slp anymore. i know he earned too much money, and that he probably deserves it. but honestly, look at the number of lawsuits he's slapped with. not as if it's not bad enough for him to lose his job, he's slapped with lawsuits from some govt team, then he's currently sued by the old nkf employees. and im pretty sure, he's gonna be issued letters from the new nkf too.

even if you want to punish someone, there is a limit. is it fair for people to slap him with so many lawsuits, after destroying his source of income? does he really need to handle so many lawsuits? or are people just trying to get a bit of what he had?(i meant money. not that 5 mins fame crap.) it doesn't make sense, does it? think from his point of view. think from his family's point of view. is there really a need for us to take back what he took from us?

money, can be earned back. if you're talking abt breach of trust, i highly doubt there will be trust after he's broke. and i don't think there was a breach of trust on his part. so wad if nkf was flourishing and had many people donating for it? it's not as if people took guns n pointed at ur temple n told u to donate. you probably donated thinking that it's good karma. well, if what you really wanted to do was to help people, and you tried, does it matter that someone took that money at the end of the chain? why are we judging him when in the end, he will be judged? who are we to kick him around and stomp on him after he fell?

maybe the old nkf management board should be sued, and not just durai alone, since they probably participated in all his deeds. maybe the entire singapore should get sued, for being so retarded, and earning money for t.t. durai. maybe, we'll all realise that law is not created to solve disputes and create harmony amongst people. bur rather, law, is just another reason for us to fighting and hate everyone else.

imagine..stepping out frm a legal theory paper knowing that u've modified many many theories. and in fact..u modified the theories..till u lost track of what u submitted. then realising that sentences following each other actually contradict. and that u prob spent too much time stoning and trying to make sense out of what you'r writing.

but. life isn't bad. legal theory is over. and i am amused by my paper. i will not fail. i will pass. just not a beautiful pass. then again, all my passes were never beautiful to begin with lar. hahahahahaha...LIFE. this is called false optimism. and i will not commit suicide, sammi. i am strong!

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH KWAN SANG WOO. OMGGGGG.

i knew i shouldn't have watched that sad love story show. i knew it! now im bloody hell addicted. ......

HE'S SO CUTE. so wad if he's 30 n 10 yrs older. love transcends age gaps!

the library's turning into a scandalous place.

i think couples should not come here for dates. i mean..no matter how much the guy wants to show how sweet he is, by offering the girl his jacket and making her feel warm (in and out), there is no need to go to a lib.

get a freaking life lar. go to the airport or something and start fantasising about gg overseas together and leave kids alone.

let kids study.

let kids learn.

don't come here and aim to the object of gossip.

right now...i want a slave damn badly. he only has a few things to do really.

1. he should carry my laptop around for me. and the contents of my bag when it's really heavy. my bag should be carried by me.

2. send me around when i'm really really tired.

3. shower me with tubs of rum n raisin.

4. and tau huey, when i want it.

see. such simple wants.

Lord, give me a robot. Please. Amen.

actually, i think this blog is pretty useless. well, unless you include how i entertain ppl via this blog. i don't talk abt how i feel most of the times. it's cos

1. i just can't pinpoint each emotion i feel and describe it accurately.

2. i cannot give a good reason to account for the emotion.

3. i do not happen to like to let every single person who chances upon my blog, or blog hops, or links alllllll around to know my vulnerability.

so to all, who think that my blog is bullshit, well it'll stay that way.
to all who want to konw wads up in my life...try harder.
to all who just can't be bothered, don't be. no one needs u to be.

i'm sad again. cos of wad my fren told me. i'm worried for him. i'm really worried. and this worry for him reminds me of a conversation i had one night.
i was told by another friend, that i need more PR skills.
he told me that i shld learn to listen, and discard and not carry it as a burden.
well. it sounds reasonable.
it does. but it doesn't go with my character.
if i listen, i wanna help.
there is no point in me listening and not helping.
why should i do that.
why should i be so detached?
i dun want to be that detached.
life shouldn't be about getting on with my life, and pretending to be a listening ear to friends.
i guess it's a different way of living.
and if i chose to live mine like him, i can just club my life away and be fucked-up.
but nah. i'm satisfied with my life, albeit it being a bit sad.

to all the lil kids who think u'r frenless. u aren't. im ur fren. hear tt?

i'm currently playing some intelligence game thingy online. so basically, it goes lk:

7 D in a W = 7 days in a week

39 B in the O T = 39 books in the old testament

and i decided to turn to ms isabel lucky ong aka izzy for some help. i mean..she's d nx thing best to a thesarus. and angie was offline watching chicago. HAHAHAHA. but anyhow...let's look at izzy's intelligence level.

9 P in S A = 9 peas in someone's arse.

12 S of the Z = 12 snoozes of the Zzz's monster!

i take my word back about her being the nx best thing to a thesarus when angie's offline. she's officially back to being a dog who has an annual bath. to everyone : my love extends to a smelly fat dog. im such a nice person! i should get a certificate or something!

time's up.

wake up.

wake up

to anyone who cares..

im sad.

cheer me up.

to the world at large:

be proud of me. i'm in d sch lib studying. so wad if i haven't done much today. the point is..i actually trooped to clementi and attempted to study. haaa!

somehow. thinking abt legal theory isn't really gg to solve many many questions in my life. but its okay. at least i feel lk some hardworking smartie. not the chocolate, but someone with a wee bit of intelligence.

roll over and die, you inferior losers whose incompetence can only be matched by your lack of common sense.

okay..so the unknown thing of a huay ching...or as zah lks to call her huay emily rose ching............read the stupid entry during crim law..n decided to snigger cos she realises how ghostly she is! it wasn't really sniggering...it was more lk stifling laughter.

but anyhow...she decided that i should load a pic to show the world that she's merely half a ghostly entity, and is actually, quite capable of showing up completely as a solid in pictures. so there you are, world. the exclusive pic of us making up. HAHHA. n making out.

ohhhhhhhh. life!

i had macs in sch this morning. n this is evidence of how i was discriminated against. my bread is sooooo much smaller than lyn's larrrrrrrrrrr. but its okay. i'm strong. i can withstand such...discrimination.

i told dan i'll load pics that are scarier. seeeeee. huay ching has a fuzzy outline. i suspect i've been talking to some non-existent ... thing. think emily rose. creepy. emily rose huay ching.....

eh anywayyyy...in order to satisfy this...unknown thing of a huay ching...i shall tell the world that i've a 71% win rate at solitaire showdown.
according to lionel chew, some guy will chance upon my blog...n realise my potential for gaming...and then propel me to superstardom in the solitaire showdown realm.
and zah agreed... because she said that Singapore is aiming to be gaming center anyway. I'M SO SURE.

but anyhow. yes. i am THAT loser. to have a 71% win rate at solitaire showdown. omg. i really have nothing better to do than to play online games lar. wth...... my life is really damn sad. i need friends.

i was asked if i was caned before, because it doesn't really make sense for me to be spoilt and bratty if i was actually caned.

for all you kpo & curious kids...i was caned. in fact, i was chased out of my house!

the only reason why i'm so bratty now, is cos i only started whining and demanding AFTER they stop caning me.

i was a guai kid. so they thought i'll turn out meek as a lamb.

tooooo bad. hahahaha..anyway..i've been spoilt by many ppl lar. it doesn't really matter if i was caned.

so to hc n zah..here's my answer as to "jing shldn't be caned wad...else she wouldn't be so spoilt.." haha

somehow..i think i can pass this pic off as a ghostly pic, a homo pic and a dumb pic.

ie. its a dumb ghostly homo pic.

its ghostly..cos u can only see my fren's head at the back. HAHAHAHA but thats all dan..im not saying u look lk a ghost. its just tt..........its only ur head. well...photographic evidence shows that u'r about a head taller...when we bend down.

love- nat king cole.

L is for the way you look at me,

O is for the only one I see,

V is very very extraordinary,

E is even more than anyone that you adore and

Love is all that I can give to you,

Love is more than just a game for two,

Two in love can make it ,

Take my heart yet please don't break it,

Love was made for me and you.

L is for the way you look at me,

O is for the only one I see,

V is very very extraordinary,

E is even more than anyone that you adore and

Love is all that I can give to you,

Love is more than just a game for two,

Two in love can make it,

Take my heart yet please don't break it,

Love was made for me and you.

Love was made for me and you.

Love was made for me and you.

nx, all i need to do is to dedicate the song. maybe to xiao long baos and rum n raisin ice cream!

i did not pay for everything.

i do not care about the money.

i do not need the money back.

i am already disgusted. and i will remain disgusted.

STOP ASKING ABOUT IT. but thanks.

honestly, i wanted to blog one entry with lots of vulgar spewing from it. but i cannot be bothered. cos i realised that i am not angry anymore. and i think its cos i bitched abt it...to sammi, mer and mabs.

but the point is i am no longer angry, but i remain extremely disgusted. imagine looking at a $400 bill, and given $200 by 2/3 of the table. imagine that.

i guess people are gonna say money isn't that important.
fuck you.

i've no money. my family has no bloody money.

and i ended up paying for some fucking bastard who has TONS of money..but just doesn't want to pay.

i ended up paying cos someone was irresponsible enough to stand up and walk off and not pay anything even after that someone made merry.

i ended up learning this extremely expensive lesson. expensive. really expensive. i dun suppose it pricked them at all. i guess this celebration turned damn warped.

law. is such a selfish and vicious faculty. and i despise the kids i ate with today.

i regret being such a brat. now im bloated. damn. i'll repent tmr.

i think it is sad how after rushing out a criminal law essay by 6 pm yesterday, i'm currently stuck doing the memorial rewrite for legal analysis, writing and research.

it's currently known as legal euthanasia.

At this unearthly hour:

1.
Probably after 5 hours after i told sammi that i'm gg to retire frm my owl status. And he actually felt happy for me. So much for retiring into the night early to show my retirement from the owl clan.

2.
The very 1st issue for the bloody crim assignment is half-done. I've 3 blooooooody issues. Bloody. Literally. Well, in the questions, anway.

3.
I realised that i like law a lot. Because i can argue whatever i want, by twisting facts. It's so fun and interesting. And there's this sense of satisfaction after you manage to do so successfully. Of course, the next step is to start reading all my notes and listening in class. One day. One fine day. I'll do so soon.

4.
Comparing hectic schedules aint my cup of tea at all.

5.
Criminal law should not be taught in seminars. They should just dump us on our own, give us cases, hypotheticals and then let us discuss. Come on, i learnt so much more this way.

6.
I think i'm overly ambitious in wanting to submit the assignment on thursday so that i don't have to troop down to clementi on friday. Fearless. Not huo yuan jia.

7.
Candace misses me! Yay.

8.
I think tomorrow's newspaper will have another murder case!

9.
I really want to eat rum and raisin ice cream.

10.
Like how Joseph put it after hearing lj describe my blog, its really full of shit

SOMEHOW. I THINK I'M DOOMED TO HOOT AS AN OWL FOR MY WHOLE LIFE.

HCl~ says:

u really love the art?

jing. says:

of cos

jing. says:

i love the artist more.

jing. says:

hahaha

HCl~ says:

i love the artist too

ahhhhhh...i'm loved.

so...during the journey (yes, journey) i embarked on 1 min ago, from the dining room to my room, i heard a piece of news that stunned me. (for all u stupid ppl, the living room happens to be the place where the bulk of the my journey took place.)

the newscaster went : Now, you can even take books out of the library to read! *beams*

is it just me? or is the newscaster/news room/mediacorp/singapore so bloody retarded that they totally forgot the fact that the purpose of a library is so that one can borrow a book out of the library and read it outside the library?

oh! the stupid things they try to promote for a stupid new building!

the freaking weather is so hot. and im down with flu. and the blooooooody flu is making my nose hurt! i think i shall be renamed as rudolph soon.

i honestly think i'm cursed. 1st the insomnia. now the flu. i think its karma. its time i start attempting to shut up.

it sucks when u feel isolated. and yet contactable. ahhhhh. i shld move to an island. where there's no curse, no contact, and best of all, no flu virus.

admiral kRack - marquee and gazebos says:

ehz, what's up with bulimia and your heart bleeding? come tell me, who break your heart, i break his head.

SEE, PEOPLE! i want more of such stuff. :D shower love on meeeeeee.

my heart bleeds.

but i can't do anything.

today, i made a new choice about the direction of my life.

i shall turn bulimic and start puking. cheeers!

i am anorexic.

today, i had:

1. instant mee

2. guava

3. hot dog roll

4. seafood platter for 1

5. rice with egg with soup with fish

6. papaya.

i obviously failed in my attempt to be struck with anorexia.

let me inform the world abt my latest plans!

1. in order to show how much i learnt from crim law, i shall eat western food. and wait for someone to come up to me n go "EATING AGAIN?" then i'll feel so provoked that i'll use the fork n poke him! and because i tripped, i ended up stabbing him instead. and besides, i'm a short kid. small ppl can get away with many things.

explanation:

a. Provocation is a defense for crimes.

b. as long as the offender is smaller than the deceased, the small offender can get away with many many many many things.

2. i shall wait patiently till kwan sang woo comes around. then i'll splash glue on myself, run into him and stick myself onto him. then i'll be with him for life.

today's the most horrendous day.

i can't believe i woke up at 530 am and couldn't go back to slp after that. and i slpt at 1 am! it's so wrong. i think i've been cursed. no one wakes up at some unearthly hour and stays awake with not more than 5 hrs of slp. omg. who cursed me. who exactly did this.

#101. THE MOMENT OF TRUTH.

nIgHtwnG says:

yes u r jing the goddess

100th post.

boo-boo #1

tw: im hungry. i woke up late and didn't eat anything.

me: im hungry too! but i had lunch!

(after some time)

tw: im hungry!

mer: look who's talking.

me: yahhhhhh...

tw: well...i didn't eat before this..unlike someone who had lunch.........

lesson: NEVER TELL PEOPLE EVERY DETAIL. HALF-TRUTHS WORK JUST AS WELL.

boo-boo #2


ritchie: where are u gg?

me: town!

ritche: taking 143?

me: i dunno..i think it'd take quite long right....

ritchie: good. i dun wan to take the bus with u.

(then he decided to remind me tt im gonna be late. v late.)

ritchie: shopping all the time...when memo is due on sat..

me: what.......well, where are YOU going?

ritchie: home.

lesson: NEVER ASSUME THAT YOU'VE THE UPPERHAND AND BE SMUG, WHEN YOU KNOW THAT RESPONSIBLE PEOPLE EXIST.

boo-boo #3.

after trooping to the toilet in the middle of "fearless", i tried to get back to my seat. only to find that i overshot. and had to turn around and go back down. the movie theater was dark. i was tired. i sheepishly returned to my seat. and realised tt mr tan yanshao was looking at me, walking beyond the row before i turned around and flopped back to the correct row. perfect. well, at least not many ppl were arnd.

lesson: DO NOT DRINK BEFORE AND DURING ANY MOVIE. OR, JUST PEE BEFORE YOU ENTER.

i learnt that

happiness isn't derived from enjoying care and attention, but is generated from the warmth and glow through showering loved ones with concern and support.

question:

if the legal age for engaging in sexual activity is 16, why the hell is the legal age to watch RA show 21?

where's my brokeback mountain and gay cowboyssss...

fucked up.

a certain individual, X, in law school decided to play a game with her shoe today during contract lect! so while she fiddled with her nice black heel, using her fooooooot, the heel decided to entertain her too! so it played hide and seek..or catching. it just totally flopped to the lower step, scaring the random person sitting in front of her. and for a min, i tot she kicked my waterbottle down..hahaha..but no! it was just that her heel played some games with her! smarrrt. hahahahahahaha. man, if you've no idea how much u blushed, u were this red! haha...to think tt contract lect was so interesting that X has to turn to her heel for comfort and entertainment. well done,xiwen. ohh..X. hahahaha

scene: girl 1, with scotchtape. girl 2, just looking. boy 1, with foolscap paper with an elephant design. boy 2, with hairy hands.

action!

girl 1: wax ur hand! (girl 1 sticks scotchtape over boy 2's hand)

boy 1: huh? tt works?

girl 1: no! (takes scotchtape off boy 2's hand at this time and showed that there's nothing.)

boy 1: ahh..chey!

(then some tussle happened!)

girl 1: i wax your elephant! (HEHHH!)

if you dirty-minded fellas thought that girl 1 was talking about *er-hmmmm* penis...you'r wrong! scroll back up n look at the characters' profile. boy 1 has a foolscap pad with an elephant design. just tt it;s not hairy..and it cannot be waxed. so..hey..who knows!

i love this pun! cute huh! if u haven't realised who's girl 2, it's me. i obviously laughed. but i dun think tt's part of the dialogue. there was more dialogue. i have no idea wad really went on. i just rem the waxing part. HAHHAHAHA. i still love u, nikkkkkki.

LAW VS. MORALITY

`- x G [ says:

i shall now give a very complex explanation on law vs moral.
there are laws in morals and there are morals in laws. there are moral laws and there are lawful morals. besides morals, there are corals, which are really a fundamental in marine law. and also, besides law, there is lor. without lor, there is no lor mee. and therefore lor resides in the law of food. law and morals are interlinked.

if i am in a position to grade this argument and supposedly complex explanation, i'm gg to give it a big, fat F. if the author is in law, (and we'll give him an imaginary name, L, to keep his identity safe) L will be booted out.

`- x G [ says:

but whyyyy???

`- x G [ says:

i'm good

`- x G [ says:

admit it

`- x G [ says:

if you say no. you're in self denial

jing says:

deluded souls are pretty dangerous

because your argument and supposedly complex argument is built upon warped reasoning and completely baseless concepts (if there's actually any to begin with), and your links are absolutely ridiculous. but it's okay, L. i do not discriminate agst happily deluded ppl who do not give arguments that make sense, and in fact are often based and cross the fine line between stupidty and insanity. in fact, i like talking to you because of your constant supply of such ...hmmm..interesting (the best way i can put it) conversation. kudos to you. no one does it better than you, L. perhaps except aush. hahahahahahaha.

roy. i gave u half my answer when u asked me if selfish people can learn how to love. i told you that everyone is selfish. and now i tell you that it's tough for selfish people to learn how to love.

i am such a freaking moron. i can't believe i actually read the wrong readings for tmr's legal theory lect. damn smart lar. the 1st attempt at being prepared for lect screwed up because i went to read the wrong articles. OMG! i seriously doubt there is any chance of me being prepared for anything in law. this is such an omen. stab me.

lionel cannot work in china in d future.

jing says:

my msn sucks

`- x G [ says:

ni de msn xi!

it took me a v long time to finally decide upon that. i guess what bugged me 5 mins ago, abt who you are to me, does not matter anymore.

WARNING: READ ONLY WHEN YOU'RE BORED. AS IN, REALLY EXTREMELY BORED TO TEARS. OTHERWISE, DON'T CURSE ME COS I'M GIVING SUCH A LONG ENTRY.

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Tons of things, actually. But the one with the deepest impact in my life is that i played spider solitaire for like, 10 times in a row. So much for having a life. Hahaha..a very fulfilling cyber life.

2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions and will you make more for next year?
honestly, i can't rem ANY of the resolutions i made for 2005. BUT, i did draw up some pointers for 2006. save this question for next year, i might have a good answer then.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
maybe some mosquitoes. Not that they really gave birth, but they laid some eggs in some pails in one toilet. And i didn't empty the pails, and my mom wasn't around to empty the pails. Sooooo, the mosquitoes laid eggs n fed on me. Bloody suckers. No pun intended.

4.Did anyone close to you die?
the same mosquitoes that bit me? I laid a trap for them! I couldn't sleep cos they were feasting on me, so i actually woke up, covered myself with my comforter, then stuck one leg out as a bait. And that stupid pest fell for it, that sucker. No pun intended, once again. And so i killed it. Oh, by the way, in case you haven't realised, i happily interpreted that “close” was talking about proximity. I refuse to hear otherwise.

5. What countries did you visit?
come to think of it, none. I refused to go Malaysia and China. I might just get bombed anyway. The world cannot stand to lose a talent like me.

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
oh. Money. Mooooore money. Hahaha..i really lacked money in 2005. thanks to all that shopping trips done. Where i spent 180 in 15 mins. WAD A HORRIBLE EXPERIENCE.

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
oh..i've lots of dates in my head now. Should it be it the day i took my results? Or when i quit from AIA? Or the 3 interviews i went for in order to get into uni? Or when i knew that i could choose whatever course i want? Or my birthday 'cos it was my birthday and i felt lousy? Or my friends' birthdays, cos i specially made presents for them? Or new yr's eve, cos i counted down with the Taiwanese via the satellite and SCV? I'm sorry if you're irritated because of my stupid answers, but this is my blog. Go update your own blog or start yours if you only want to read what makes you happy.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
i dunno. I dun think i had ANY achievement at all. Once again,i put in dismal amount of effort in my studies. No achievement. Wrong question to ask me.

9. What was your biggest failure?
hahahahahahahaha. I don't like this question.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
this is stupid. Who doesn't fall ill in this world? Stupid.

11.What was the best thing you bought?
erm. The laptop? Ahahaha..but it isn't all that great. Maybe its the cheap cloth slippers i bought from bugis. The ones that i can flop around in EVERYWHERE and still feel comfy. They shouldn't have increased the price. Lousy.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
mine. Hahha..don't say i'm egoistic. I am not. I'm merely patting myself on the back for being able to TRY to be happy.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
-censored-

14. Where did most of your money go?
i don't know. It's impossible for me to list out all the restaurants and snack bars i've visited in the year. Or all the shops where i bought all my stuff. But most of my money went OUT OF MY BANK.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
my results cos i wasn't expecting that. I thought i got CDE. Oh, and law's acceptance. Cos EVERYONE thought i wouldn't get in. and to those who decided to tell me that it's tough in law and i should think carefully, please try and forgive me for smirking in your face. Cos that smirk will remain there for the rest of my life.

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
sorry. Songs do not remind me of the year. Unless the song specifically states 2005.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i) Happier or sadder?
happier. At least lessons are beginning one day later. This time last year, i was probably whining about working at AIA. Make that, definitely.

ii) Thinner or fatter?
shardup.

iii) Richer or poorer?
i'm penniless. What do u think the answer is

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
making friends. I'm friendless.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
honestly, i don't think i should have done less of anything. I'm fine with my very short past and history. I'm NOT referring to my height, or the lack of.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Christmas is over. But, for your information, i had a v merry Christmas.

21. Did you fall in love in 2005?
with myself?

23. How many one-night stands?
i dun understand why this question is ALWAYS haunting EVERY single quiz or questionnaire or whatever.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
oh hahahaha..i actually watch tons of Taiwan variety show. Can't give u the name. I'm shy.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
hate takes up too much of my emotion. It's quite dumb to hate someone, so i've learnt that dislike is good enough. No hate, no hate.

26. What was the best book you read?
Autobiography of a One-year-old. Hahahah..the best i can handle currently.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
as in, of myself? That i can't play any musical instruments? No recorder, no harmonica, no piano. Oh, but my dear lump told me that i've got some uncanny similarities to a violin. Small and whiny. I love you, lump.

28. What did you want and get?
i wanted to be happy. I managed to be quite happy.

29. What did you want and not get?
i wanted to lose weight. Hahaha..and i had buffets, food sprees, and suppers. And more are coming along my way.

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
can't remember any offhand. Apparently none made an impression. Or maybe i'm just too tired now.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i mourned for myself and i was 19.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
i think this question is ridiculous, and i deem it below my dignity to answer this. There is absolutely no point in thinking what could have been made my year “immeasurably more satisfying”. Just cos the setter of this feels that his/her year was “immeasurably unsatisfying”, i don't find mine in need of a hoist in any area to make it “immeasurable more satisfying”.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
i honestly don't think i had any. Being someone who travelled from hougang to clementi in shorts, tshirts n slippers, i think the concept is comfort. Not slack. COMFORT. Comfort is key. Like the taxi we always flag down? Okay. That was a bit too random.

34. What kept you sane?
my prayers to God. Thank God.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i didn't fancy anyone. I laughed at tons tho'

36.What political issue stirred you the most?
i will not comment on any political issue. I'll get sued. Besides, i get stirred up by every political issue. So i'll probably end up typing an essay. And i'm in no mood to type one out. I dun think you're in any mood to read one now. I can't believe u read all the way to this question. This entry's really really long.

37. Who did you miss?
myself. And tons of many others.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
i dunno. There're too many people i'm really thankful to know in law. Really. And i'm thankful for various reasons. Hahaha. Okay. If you don't realise, i'm only trying to shun this question. Stupid lar. Stupid question. I really think setters of questionnaires need more brains.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005
that it takes a lot of effort to choose to smile, and religion helps. Ohh, and that i cannot be a housewife, nor a desk bound office lady. And tauhuey is absolutely fantastic. And i bake nice cookies.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
”i feel like a little girl, trying to conquer the whole wide world” little superhero girl, by Corrine May. Talented singer with a beautiful voice. I attempted to screech along to her songs, and decided that i shouldn't mar them. Maybe, i still am a little girl who wants to conquer the whole wide world.

i realised tt in thanking God for every little detail in my life every night before i slp, i go to bed as a happier person. perhaps, this is what Christianity is all about. to allow one to choose positive emotions over negative ones. i think in the last few months, i've grown to be more positive. despite me being all cynical and moody, at least i've learnt to laugh at certain things and not let it drag me down all d way to d pits.

thank God.

i've just been told that i'm TANTRUM-Y. just cos i insisted tt my hair is nice and i dun care, cos i think its nice. hahahahha..i lk tt. tantrum-y. wad a nice word to replace spoilt. nice euphemism.

some things nv change. and i think it's time for me to realise that it will NEVER change no matter how hard i try. but this is not the reason for my heavy mood. i just can't figure out why i feel so down. im not even sad. im just down.

on a side note, tho' def not happier, i don't mind dying young. its d 2nd day of the new yr. and all i see frm news happen to be abt more deaths frm bird flu, flash flood, bushfire, beheading of soldiers etc. so, tell me a reason why i shld try and live a long life!