i want to be a kid again.

i only want to worry about not being able to finish my pile of sweets.

i only want to worry about not having enough time to play.

i only want to worry about how i can't kick some ball wearing some dress.

i only want to worry about how the rain might stop me from sitting on the swing.

i only want to worry about the bugs tt might attack me while i sit in the grass.

i only want to worry about when will i get to see a ripe mango falling down from the tree in my yard.

i only want to worry about being scolded for running around bare-footed.

i only want to worry about whether i'll get to eat crabs in the middle of the night.

i only want to worry about how i might miss the chance to jump on the bed.

i only want to worry about sleeping before my kid brother comes home from my aunt's place.

i only want to worry about having fun.

i only want to worry about being happy.


i am addicted to memories. or maybe, i just want to stop worrying.

someone turn me back into a kid.

i dont want to grow older.

not when it indicates that i stop having fun.

not when it brings along unnecessary worries.

not when it becomes a burden.

i don't want to be old enough to think.

i don't want to be old enough to feel.

i don't want to be old enough to worry.


help me.

help me.

please.

my heart aches each time i think abt you.

the pain rids me of my smile.
it reveals the cruelty of life.

the pain swallows my hope.
it does not allow me to dream.

the pain destroyes my ideals.
it reminds me that i'm powerless.

i dont think you'll see this. but my heart aches.
n i'd rather mope around than to forget you and start smiling.

i shld just fucking live with it.

i feel stupid.

i feel amazed n stupid.

who the hell can whine that she's tired and end up watching some stupid drama till this time of the morning. gosh.

if im a hobbit, i want a friend lk samwise gamgee.
actually..it doesn't matter.
i want a friend lk samwise gamgee whether or not im a hobbit.

i am such a stupid spoilt brat!

the following convo took place.

dad: wad do u want for dinner?

me: fish porridge!

several many many many minutes later....

daddy: eh they don't have fish porridge at chomp chomp.you don't want anything other than fish porridge?

me: WHY DO U ALWAYS DO THIS TO ME! SEE LARR..ALWAYS DEPRIVE ME OF MY FISH PORRIDGE.

daddy: aiyah okay okayyy..i'll go and find ur fish porridge lar..i'll go dig around..

me: no! u'r using tactics to make me feel guilty right! u evil!

daddy: hahahahahahaha....okay okay..i'll go find fish porridge for u...somewhere.

I LOVE MY DADDYYYYYY.

I WANT A HOUSE WITH A SWING. PRONTO.

yays! i got a new blog layout! its so pretty! i think it'd make a good tattoo design.

anyhowwww.......this layout is changed by izzy! yayyy. my resident blog-template-modifier. hhahahh. thank you! so i got a lil thing for u.

thank you! u'r very much appreciated!

im convinced that there's bad fengshui at my house. all d fishys are dying one by one. and they'r dying on a daily basis. goodness. and my parents dont even feed them. they FORGET to feed the fishys they bought.

maybe its just fishys...just their luck not to be able to bark for food or make any sort of noise.
stupid dying fishys.

i don't happen to like death that much. not even for lil cannibalistic fishys. esp not in my hse.

it's as if the fishys in the tank are involved in a "survivor" game of their own.
i shall take a pic of the last surviving fishy, just before it dies.
just to give it the recognition it deserves for battling lousy fengshui.

i watched jasmine women. and i'm disturbed. thoroughly. i don't know why tho. the images are too.....loud. and altho i dun lk zhang ziyi, i think she's a good actress. my puny brain is trying to figure out the issues in d show.

by the way, i really need a new brain. i...

1. could not construct a sentence properly and hold a normal conversation during dinner.
2. could not differentiate between left and right when giving directions to my place.

i think my puny brain is overworked. or it overslept.

Let me tell you what addiction is.

Addiction is watching a Korean show till 6 am, and then waking at 2pm to continue watching the show. And still watching the show even though I am groggy and my puny brain is telling me to go to bed. And it becomes so bad that I have to move around the living room to stay awake and alert, with my eyes on the screen to ensure I don't miss any second of the show.

This is addiction.

But anyhow, I managed to come up with some theories while dealing with my addiction! Well, if you wanna know about my theories, hang around online when I watch my dramas. I might let you know about my obscure theories that are actually pretty "duh!"

HAIYAHS! I like the skinny skinny, tall tall prince with tiny tiny eyes in the show. Although, I think he is actually quite ugly. Life!

I like watching Korean shows and think about my imaginary love life.
They remind me that love destroys.

I need to know more things that would bring a sweet, lingering smile on my face that would warm my heart.

Then again, I don’t want to know those things. I want those things to happen to me.

I was asked if it’s better never to experience heartbreak than to have one heart-wrenching relationship. Good job, angie. Nice question to ask me just before I embark on my Korean show marathon. Hahahaha. No answer. No answer at all.

The answer is obvious. But I don’t do what I think I should. I never do what I should.

My puny brain is dying.

met jiehui. and realised many things!

1.

one friend of mine......is so selfish she doesn't want to have kids because she'd rather spend money on herself. no prizes guessing which fren.

2.

i am easily victimised. i nv knew i could be stopped so many times along orchard. i am so easily bullied.

3.

there is a look for nus's arts and social sciences. i happen to have that look.

4.

the shocked faces given when i clarified tell me that i look too dumb to be there.

5.

i cannot help but look at shoes. its not within my control.

there are many more things. but i just dun feel lk listing them. anyhow...i was stopped so many times. n i thought i managed to siam them successfully..only to find those ppl popping up frm the other side cos they realised i was changing my route. asses. and to think i was so smug that im smart. bleahs.

i was packing my wardrobe..then i found one t-shirt that was a gift. it was a present that izzy and apple drew for my birthday.

i love the shirt so much. it makes me smile!

i miss them so much.

i need to go back to mjc.

omgggg. i just watched a damn wrong show. some stupid taiwanese variety show just said that 48kg means that someone is very fat. and the person they were talking abt..was someone who is TALL.

WTF! n to think i wondered why ppl turn anorexic and bulimic!

what is so attractive about looking lk a skeleton?

48 kg! omgggggg. i cannot go to taiwan. i'll be damn overweight there.

i think she is damnnnn hot. nicole (something...its too long) from pcd. hooooot.

i hate it when everyone says "yay okay. lets do it!" then suddenly go "oh sorry. im not free."

i am not talking abt anyone in particular.

i am obviously guilty of it too.

i need new friends.

my dad is stupid. period.

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image. On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex. You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time. Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

What Donut Are You?

this is soooo apt.

so d day i decide to read the newspapers is the day i think the singapore rallies is stupid.

honestly, i don't think insulting someone's place is a very smart tactic to use. "aljunied will become a dismal place like hougang."

well, smart. i know eric low thinks he can save us and let us cease being dismal. and probably the rest of the PAP think that hougang cannot be saved anyhow. (well, this is wad i get frm george yeo's statement)

but im happy being dismal.

in fact, i think it's only cos hougang is dismal..that is y bukit timah looks so glam. cos we've no money since money is used by the state for something else. perhaps filling holes in the road.

and yes. dominant PAP is our key to success. kiss my ass.

dear kershyaaaa found icons that scream my name:

I MISS YOU, KERSHYA WONG.

COME HOME NOW.

daniel ch. says:

shit im not typing whta im thinking

jing says:

no its okay.

jing says:

im surprised u think to begin with.

daniel ch. says:

thanks, i wish the fishes ate you instead

jing says:

eeyrs!

jing says:

u evil guy!

this is such a vicious world! it's so brutal! imagine the friend u whined to abt the fishys telling you that he wished the fishys ate u instead! and he knows how painful the entire episode is for me! good job, dan.

anyway..let me dedicate this post to u.
you look shy and reserved and nice.
but u turn out otherwise. you hide behind your shyness. (By the way, this term is only used exclusively, by us, on you.)
you say the weirdest stuff. or say acceptable things..in the weirdest way possible.
and you'r evil. dun tell me u'r evil to evil ppl, n nice to nice ppl. nice ppl stay nice throughout, no matter who they are talking to!
but u'r still my fren. cos u make me laugh. hahaha.

okay..due to duress, i'm here to add in more facts abt mr chan.
he's actually quite nice. after i whined abt the fishys, and he had to go offline to get his internet connection fixed. when he came back online, he actually asked if i was still sad. soo nice.

and he'll help you carry things.
when he's feeling nice.

oh, and he'll praise you!
only to shoot u down later!

he also smiles a lot and gets along well with everyone. he does.
really!

so..are u happy with this, daniel?

IM SO SAD.

the fighting fish tog with the other fishys died. the only reason why i feed them carefully..is cos i want the fighting fish to eat! BUT HES DEAD! :((((((((

and........he was eaten! :(((((((((((((

my mom said its cos i didn't feed enuf. and the starving fishys went to eat his dead body. (bloody greedy asses. how can they eat another fish! im not gg to feed them anymore!) :((((((((((((((((((((((

maybe..the fighting fish died cos he was starving since the other fishys bullied him. and i didn't feed enuf, so he couldn't eat. and then he cldn't fight for himself! he couldn't defend himself! and he had to die with only half a body! :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

i was reading lump's blog. then i realised tt i actually had 2 things on my mind to blog. so here they are:

1.
dear huay ching...wanted to prove how nice she was. so she said she'll be nice and stop bitching abt T if she graduates this year.
hooow nice! cept for the fact tt she won't graduate from law this year. she can only move on and get into yr 2.
hooooow nice.

2.
my dearest lump.......wanted to cross the road. and i told her that its raining. and she walked onto the walkway of bugis junction in order to see if it was really raining!
nothing is wrong with this, really. it makes perfect sense for anyone to do that. to walk into the rain and see if it's still raining.
however, the icing on this cake is that she walked into the walkway WITH SHELTER to see if it was raining.
i am so sure that the shelter had holes to let her check if it was raining. i ammmm soo sure. da chang jing destroys brains lar. gosh.

i think that t.t. durai deserves sympathy. look at how stressed he looks now. he probably doesn't slp anymore. i know he earned too much money, and that he probably deserves it. but honestly, look at the number of lawsuits he's slapped with. not as if it's not bad enough for him to lose his job, he's slapped with lawsuits from some govt team, then he's currently sued by the old nkf employees. and im pretty sure, he's gonna be issued letters from the new nkf too.

even if you want to punish someone, there is a limit. is it fair for people to slap him with so many lawsuits, after destroying his source of income? does he really need to handle so many lawsuits? or are people just trying to get a bit of what he had?(i meant money. not that 5 mins fame crap.) it doesn't make sense, does it? think from his point of view. think from his family's point of view. is there really a need for us to take back what he took from us?

money, can be earned back. if you're talking abt breach of trust, i highly doubt there will be trust after he's broke. and i don't think there was a breach of trust on his part. so wad if nkf was flourishing and had many people donating for it? it's not as if people took guns n pointed at ur temple n told u to donate. you probably donated thinking that it's good karma. well, if what you really wanted to do was to help people, and you tried, does it matter that someone took that money at the end of the chain? why are we judging him when in the end, he will be judged? who are we to kick him around and stomp on him after he fell?

maybe the old nkf management board should be sued, and not just durai alone, since they probably participated in all his deeds. maybe the entire singapore should get sued, for being so retarded, and earning money for t.t. durai. maybe, we'll all realise that law is not created to solve disputes and create harmony amongst people. bur rather, law, is just another reason for us to fighting and hate everyone else.

imagine..stepping out frm a legal theory paper knowing that u've modified many many theories. and in fact..u modified the theories..till u lost track of what u submitted. then realising that sentences following each other actually contradict. and that u prob spent too much time stoning and trying to make sense out of what you'r writing.

but. life isn't bad. legal theory is over. and i am amused by my paper. i will not fail. i will pass. just not a beautiful pass. then again, all my passes were never beautiful to begin with lar. hahahahahaha...LIFE. this is called false optimism. and i will not commit suicide, sammi. i am strong!

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH KWAN SANG WOO. OMGGGGG.

i knew i shouldn't have watched that sad love story show. i knew it! now im bloody hell addicted. ......

HE'S SO CUTE. so wad if he's 30 n 10 yrs older. love transcends age gaps!

the library's turning into a scandalous place.

i think couples should not come here for dates. i mean..no matter how much the guy wants to show how sweet he is, by offering the girl his jacket and making her feel warm (in and out), there is no need to go to a lib.

get a freaking life lar. go to the airport or something and start fantasising about gg overseas together and leave kids alone.

let kids study.

let kids learn.

don't come here and aim to the object of gossip.

right now...i want a slave damn badly. he only has a few things to do really.

1. he should carry my laptop around for me. and the contents of my bag when it's really heavy. my bag should be carried by me.

2. send me around when i'm really really tired.

3. shower me with tubs of rum n raisin.

4. and tau huey, when i want it.

see. such simple wants.

Lord, give me a robot. Please. Amen.

actually, i think this blog is pretty useless. well, unless you include how i entertain ppl via this blog. i don't talk abt how i feel most of the times. it's cos

1. i just can't pinpoint each emotion i feel and describe it accurately.

2. i cannot give a good reason to account for the emotion.

3. i do not happen to like to let every single person who chances upon my blog, or blog hops, or links alllllll around to know my vulnerability.

so to all, who think that my blog is bullshit, well it'll stay that way.
to all who want to konw wads up in my life...try harder.
to all who just can't be bothered, don't be. no one needs u to be.

i'm sad again. cos of wad my fren told me. i'm worried for him. i'm really worried. and this worry for him reminds me of a conversation i had one night.
i was told by another friend, that i need more PR skills.
he told me that i shld learn to listen, and discard and not carry it as a burden.
well. it sounds reasonable.
it does. but it doesn't go with my character.
if i listen, i wanna help.
there is no point in me listening and not helping.
why should i do that.
why should i be so detached?
i dun want to be that detached.
life shouldn't be about getting on with my life, and pretending to be a listening ear to friends.
i guess it's a different way of living.
and if i chose to live mine like him, i can just club my life away and be fucked-up.
but nah. i'm satisfied with my life, albeit it being a bit sad.

to all the lil kids who think u'r frenless. u aren't. im ur fren. hear tt?

i'm currently playing some intelligence game thingy online. so basically, it goes lk:

7 D in a W = 7 days in a week

39 B in the O T = 39 books in the old testament

and i decided to turn to ms isabel lucky ong aka izzy for some help. i mean..she's d nx thing best to a thesarus. and angie was offline watching chicago. HAHAHAHA. but anyhow...let's look at izzy's intelligence level.

9 P in S A = 9 peas in someone's arse.

12 S of the Z = 12 snoozes of the Zzz's monster!

i take my word back about her being the nx best thing to a thesarus when angie's offline. she's officially back to being a dog who has an annual bath. to everyone : my love extends to a smelly fat dog. im such a nice person! i should get a certificate or something!

time's up.

wake up.

wake up

to anyone who cares..

im sad.

cheer me up.

to the world at large:

be proud of me. i'm in d sch lib studying. so wad if i haven't done much today. the point is..i actually trooped to clementi and attempted to study. haaa!

somehow. thinking abt legal theory isn't really gg to solve many many questions in my life. but its okay. at least i feel lk some hardworking smartie. not the chocolate, but someone with a wee bit of intelligence.

roll over and die, you inferior losers whose incompetence can only be matched by your lack of common sense.

okay..so the unknown thing of a huay ching...or as zah lks to call her huay emily rose ching............read the stupid entry during crim law..n decided to snigger cos she realises how ghostly she is! it wasn't really sniggering...it was more lk stifling laughter.

but anyhow...she decided that i should load a pic to show the world that she's merely half a ghostly entity, and is actually, quite capable of showing up completely as a solid in pictures. so there you are, world. the exclusive pic of us making up. HAHHA. n making out.

ohhhhhhhh. life!

i had macs in sch this morning. n this is evidence of how i was discriminated against. my bread is sooooo much smaller than lyn's larrrrrrrrrrr. but its okay. i'm strong. i can withstand such...discrimination.

i told dan i'll load pics that are scarier. seeeeee. huay ching has a fuzzy outline. i suspect i've been talking to some non-existent ... thing. think emily rose. creepy. emily rose huay ching.....

eh anywayyyy...in order to satisfy this...unknown thing of a huay ching...i shall tell the world that i've a 71% win rate at solitaire showdown.
according to lionel chew, some guy will chance upon my blog...n realise my potential for gaming...and then propel me to superstardom in the solitaire showdown realm.
and zah agreed... because she said that Singapore is aiming to be gaming center anyway. I'M SO SURE.

but anyhow. yes. i am THAT loser. to have a 71% win rate at solitaire showdown. omg. i really have nothing better to do than to play online games lar. wth...... my life is really damn sad. i need friends.

i was asked if i was caned before, because it doesn't really make sense for me to be spoilt and bratty if i was actually caned.

for all you kpo & curious kids...i was caned. in fact, i was chased out of my house!

the only reason why i'm so bratty now, is cos i only started whining and demanding AFTER they stop caning me.

i was a guai kid. so they thought i'll turn out meek as a lamb.

tooooo bad. hahahaha..anyway..i've been spoilt by many ppl lar. it doesn't really matter if i was caned.

so to hc n zah..here's my answer as to "jing shldn't be caned wad...else she wouldn't be so spoilt.." haha

somehow..i think i can pass this pic off as a ghostly pic, a homo pic and a dumb pic.

ie. its a dumb ghostly homo pic.

its ghostly..cos u can only see my fren's head at the back. HAHAHAHA but thats all dan..im not saying u look lk a ghost. its just tt..........its only ur head. well...photographic evidence shows that u'r about a head taller...when we bend down.

love- nat king cole.

L is for the way you look at me,

O is for the only one I see,

V is very very extraordinary,

E is even more than anyone that you adore and

Love is all that I can give to you,

Love is more than just a game for two,

Two in love can make it ,

Take my heart yet please don't break it,

Love was made for me and you.

L is for the way you look at me,

O is for the only one I see,

V is very very extraordinary,

E is even more than anyone that you adore and

Love is all that I can give to you,

Love is more than just a game for two,

Two in love can make it,

Take my heart yet please don't break it,

Love was made for me and you.

Love was made for me and you.

Love was made for me and you.

nx, all i need to do is to dedicate the song. maybe to xiao long baos and rum n raisin ice cream!

i did not pay for everything.

i do not care about the money.

i do not need the money back.

i am already disgusted. and i will remain disgusted.

STOP ASKING ABOUT IT. but thanks.

honestly, i wanted to blog one entry with lots of vulgar spewing from it. but i cannot be bothered. cos i realised that i am not angry anymore. and i think its cos i bitched abt it...to sammi, mer and mabs.

but the point is i am no longer angry, but i remain extremely disgusted. imagine looking at a $400 bill, and given $200 by 2/3 of the table. imagine that.

i guess people are gonna say money isn't that important.
fuck you.

i've no money. my family has no bloody money.

and i ended up paying for some fucking bastard who has TONS of money..but just doesn't want to pay.

i ended up paying cos someone was irresponsible enough to stand up and walk off and not pay anything even after that someone made merry.

i ended up learning this extremely expensive lesson. expensive. really expensive. i dun suppose it pricked them at all. i guess this celebration turned damn warped.

law. is such a selfish and vicious faculty. and i despise the kids i ate with today.

i regret being such a brat. now im bloated. damn. i'll repent tmr.

i think it is sad how after rushing out a criminal law essay by 6 pm yesterday, i'm currently stuck doing the memorial rewrite for legal analysis, writing and research.

it's currently known as legal euthanasia.

At this unearthly hour:

1.
Probably after 5 hours after i told sammi that i'm gg to retire frm my owl status. And he actually felt happy for me. So much for retiring into the night early to show my retirement from the owl clan.

2.
The very 1st issue for the bloody crim assignment is half-done. I've 3 blooooooody issues. Bloody. Literally. Well, in the questions, anway.

3.
I realised that i like law a lot. Because i can argue whatever i want, by twisting facts. It's so fun and interesting. And there's this sense of satisfaction after you manage to do so successfully. Of course, the next step is to start reading all my notes and listening in class. One day. One fine day. I'll do so soon.

4.
Comparing hectic schedules aint my cup of tea at all.

5.
Criminal law should not be taught in seminars. They should just dump us on our own, give us cases, hypotheticals and then let us discuss. Come on, i learnt so much more this way.

6.
I think i'm overly ambitious in wanting to submit the assignment on thursday so that i don't have to troop down to clementi on friday. Fearless. Not huo yuan jia.

7.
Candace misses me! Yay.

8.
I think tomorrow's newspaper will have another murder case!

9.
I really want to eat rum and raisin ice cream.

10.
Like how Joseph put it after hearing lj describe my blog, its really full of shit

SOMEHOW. I THINK I'M DOOMED TO HOOT AS AN OWL FOR MY WHOLE LIFE.

HCl~ says:

u really love the art?

jing. says:

of cos

jing. says:

i love the artist more.

jing. says:

hahaha

HCl~ says:

i love the artist too

ahhhhhh...i'm loved.

so...during the journey (yes, journey) i embarked on 1 min ago, from the dining room to my room, i heard a piece of news that stunned me. (for all u stupid ppl, the living room happens to be the place where the bulk of the my journey took place.)

the newscaster went : Now, you can even take books out of the library to read! *beams*

is it just me? or is the newscaster/news room/mediacorp/singapore so bloody retarded that they totally forgot the fact that the purpose of a library is so that one can borrow a book out of the library and read it outside the library?

oh! the stupid things they try to promote for a stupid new building!

the freaking weather is so hot. and im down with flu. and the blooooooody flu is making my nose hurt! i think i shall be renamed as rudolph soon.

i honestly think i'm cursed. 1st the insomnia. now the flu. i think its karma. its time i start attempting to shut up.

it sucks when u feel isolated. and yet contactable. ahhhhh. i shld move to an island. where there's no curse, no contact, and best of all, no flu virus.

admiral kRack - marquee and gazebos says:

ehz, what's up with bulimia and your heart bleeding? come tell me, who break your heart, i break his head.

SEE, PEOPLE! i want more of such stuff. :D shower love on meeeeeee.

my heart bleeds.

but i can't do anything.

today, i made a new choice about the direction of my life.

i shall turn bulimic and start puking. cheeers!

i am anorexic.

today, i had:

1. instant mee

2. guava

3. hot dog roll

4. seafood platter for 1

5. rice with egg with soup with fish

6. papaya.

i obviously failed in my attempt to be struck with anorexia.

let me inform the world abt my latest plans!

1. in order to show how much i learnt from crim law, i shall eat western food. and wait for someone to come up to me n go "EATING AGAIN?" then i'll feel so provoked that i'll use the fork n poke him! and because i tripped, i ended up stabbing him instead. and besides, i'm a short kid. small ppl can get away with many things.

explanation:

a. Provocation is a defense for crimes.

b. as long as the offender is smaller than the deceased, the small offender can get away with many many many many things.

2. i shall wait patiently till kwan sang woo comes around. then i'll splash glue on myself, run into him and stick myself onto him. then i'll be with him for life.

today's the most horrendous day.

i can't believe i woke up at 530 am and couldn't go back to slp after that. and i slpt at 1 am! it's so wrong. i think i've been cursed. no one wakes up at some unearthly hour and stays awake with not more than 5 hrs of slp. omg. who cursed me. who exactly did this.

#101. THE MOMENT OF TRUTH.

nIgHtwnG says:

yes u r jing the goddess

100th post.

boo-boo #1

tw: im hungry. i woke up late and didn't eat anything.

me: im hungry too! but i had lunch!

(after some time)

tw: im hungry!

mer: look who's talking.

me: yahhhhhh...

tw: well...i didn't eat before this..unlike someone who had lunch.........

lesson: NEVER TELL PEOPLE EVERY DETAIL. HALF-TRUTHS WORK JUST AS WELL.

boo-boo #2


ritchie: where are u gg?

me: town!

ritche: taking 143?

me: i dunno..i think it'd take quite long right....

ritchie: good. i dun wan to take the bus with u.

(then he decided to remind me tt im gonna be late. v late.)

ritchie: shopping all the time...when memo is due on sat..

me: what.......well, where are YOU going?

ritchie: home.

lesson: NEVER ASSUME THAT YOU'VE THE UPPERHAND AND BE SMUG, WHEN YOU KNOW THAT RESPONSIBLE PEOPLE EXIST.

boo-boo #3.

after trooping to the toilet in the middle of "fearless", i tried to get back to my seat. only to find that i overshot. and had to turn around and go back down. the movie theater was dark. i was tired. i sheepishly returned to my seat. and realised tt mr tan yanshao was looking at me, walking beyond the row before i turned around and flopped back to the correct row. perfect. well, at least not many ppl were arnd.

lesson: DO NOT DRINK BEFORE AND DURING ANY MOVIE. OR, JUST PEE BEFORE YOU ENTER.

i learnt that

happiness isn't derived from enjoying care and attention, but is generated from the warmth and glow through showering loved ones with concern and support.

question:

if the legal age for engaging in sexual activity is 16, why the hell is the legal age to watch RA show 21?

where's my brokeback mountain and gay cowboyssss...

fucked up.

a certain individual, X, in law school decided to play a game with her shoe today during contract lect! so while she fiddled with her nice black heel, using her fooooooot, the heel decided to entertain her too! so it played hide and seek..or catching. it just totally flopped to the lower step, scaring the random person sitting in front of her. and for a min, i tot she kicked my waterbottle down..hahaha..but no! it was just that her heel played some games with her! smarrrt. hahahahahahaha. man, if you've no idea how much u blushed, u were this red! haha...to think tt contract lect was so interesting that X has to turn to her heel for comfort and entertainment. well done,xiwen. ohh..X. hahahaha

scene: girl 1, with scotchtape. girl 2, just looking. boy 1, with foolscap paper with an elephant design. boy 2, with hairy hands.

action!

girl 1: wax ur hand! (girl 1 sticks scotchtape over boy 2's hand)

boy 1: huh? tt works?

girl 1: no! (takes scotchtape off boy 2's hand at this time and showed that there's nothing.)

boy 1: ahh..chey!

(then some tussle happened!)

girl 1: i wax your elephant! (HEHHH!)

if you dirty-minded fellas thought that girl 1 was talking about *er-hmmmm* penis...you'r wrong! scroll back up n look at the characters' profile. boy 1 has a foolscap pad with an elephant design. just tt it;s not hairy..and it cannot be waxed. so..hey..who knows!

i love this pun! cute huh! if u haven't realised who's girl 2, it's me. i obviously laughed. but i dun think tt's part of the dialogue. there was more dialogue. i have no idea wad really went on. i just rem the waxing part. HAHHAHAHA. i still love u, nikkkkkki.

LAW VS. MORALITY

`- x G [ says:

i shall now give a very complex explanation on law vs moral.
there are laws in morals and there are morals in laws. there are moral laws and there are lawful morals. besides morals, there are corals, which are really a fundamental in marine law. and also, besides law, there is lor. without lor, there is no lor mee. and therefore lor resides in the law of food. law and morals are interlinked.

if i am in a position to grade this argument and supposedly complex explanation, i'm gg to give it a big, fat F. if the author is in law, (and we'll give him an imaginary name, L, to keep his identity safe) L will be booted out.

`- x G [ says:

but whyyyy???

`- x G [ says:

i'm good

`- x G [ says:

admit it

`- x G [ says:

if you say no. you're in self denial

jing says:

deluded souls are pretty dangerous

because your argument and supposedly complex argument is built upon warped reasoning and completely baseless concepts (if there's actually any to begin with), and your links are absolutely ridiculous. but it's okay, L. i do not discriminate agst happily deluded ppl who do not give arguments that make sense, and in fact are often based and cross the fine line between stupidty and insanity. in fact, i like talking to you because of your constant supply of such ...hmmm..interesting (the best way i can put it) conversation. kudos to you. no one does it better than you, L. perhaps except aush. hahahahahahaha.

roy. i gave u half my answer when u asked me if selfish people can learn how to love. i told you that everyone is selfish. and now i tell you that it's tough for selfish people to learn how to love.

i am such a freaking moron. i can't believe i actually read the wrong readings for tmr's legal theory lect. damn smart lar. the 1st attempt at being prepared for lect screwed up because i went to read the wrong articles. OMG! i seriously doubt there is any chance of me being prepared for anything in law. this is such an omen. stab me.

lionel cannot work in china in d future.

jing says:

my msn sucks

`- x G [ says:

ni de msn xi!

it took me a v long time to finally decide upon that. i guess what bugged me 5 mins ago, abt who you are to me, does not matter anymore.

WARNING: READ ONLY WHEN YOU'RE BORED. AS IN, REALLY EXTREMELY BORED TO TEARS. OTHERWISE, DON'T CURSE ME COS I'M GIVING SUCH A LONG ENTRY.

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Tons of things, actually. But the one with the deepest impact in my life is that i played spider solitaire for like, 10 times in a row. So much for having a life. Hahaha..a very fulfilling cyber life.

2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions and will you make more for next year?
honestly, i can't rem ANY of the resolutions i made for 2005. BUT, i did draw up some pointers for 2006. save this question for next year, i might have a good answer then.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
maybe some mosquitoes. Not that they really gave birth, but they laid some eggs in some pails in one toilet. And i didn't empty the pails, and my mom wasn't around to empty the pails. Sooooo, the mosquitoes laid eggs n fed on me. Bloody suckers. No pun intended.

4.Did anyone close to you die?
the same mosquitoes that bit me? I laid a trap for them! I couldn't sleep cos they were feasting on me, so i actually woke up, covered myself with my comforter, then stuck one leg out as a bait. And that stupid pest fell for it, that sucker. No pun intended, once again. And so i killed it. Oh, by the way, in case you haven't realised, i happily interpreted that “close” was talking about proximity. I refuse to hear otherwise.

5. What countries did you visit?
come to think of it, none. I refused to go Malaysia and China. I might just get bombed anyway. The world cannot stand to lose a talent like me.

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
oh. Money. Mooooore money. Hahaha..i really lacked money in 2005. thanks to all that shopping trips done. Where i spent 180 in 15 mins. WAD A HORRIBLE EXPERIENCE.

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
oh..i've lots of dates in my head now. Should it be it the day i took my results? Or when i quit from AIA? Or the 3 interviews i went for in order to get into uni? Or when i knew that i could choose whatever course i want? Or my birthday 'cos it was my birthday and i felt lousy? Or my friends' birthdays, cos i specially made presents for them? Or new yr's eve, cos i counted down with the Taiwanese via the satellite and SCV? I'm sorry if you're irritated because of my stupid answers, but this is my blog. Go update your own blog or start yours if you only want to read what makes you happy.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
i dunno. I dun think i had ANY achievement at all. Once again,i put in dismal amount of effort in my studies. No achievement. Wrong question to ask me.

9. What was your biggest failure?
hahahahahahahaha. I don't like this question.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
this is stupid. Who doesn't fall ill in this world? Stupid.

11.What was the best thing you bought?
erm. The laptop? Ahahaha..but it isn't all that great. Maybe its the cheap cloth slippers i bought from bugis. The ones that i can flop around in EVERYWHERE and still feel comfy. They shouldn't have increased the price. Lousy.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
mine. Hahha..don't say i'm egoistic. I am not. I'm merely patting myself on the back for being able to TRY to be happy.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
-censored-

14. Where did most of your money go?
i don't know. It's impossible for me to list out all the restaurants and snack bars i've visited in the year. Or all the shops where i bought all my stuff. But most of my money went OUT OF MY BANK.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
my results cos i wasn't expecting that. I thought i got CDE. Oh, and law's acceptance. Cos EVERYONE thought i wouldn't get in. and to those who decided to tell me that it's tough in law and i should think carefully, please try and forgive me for smirking in your face. Cos that smirk will remain there for the rest of my life.

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
sorry. Songs do not remind me of the year. Unless the song specifically states 2005.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i) Happier or sadder?
happier. At least lessons are beginning one day later. This time last year, i was probably whining about working at AIA. Make that, definitely.

ii) Thinner or fatter?
shardup.

iii) Richer or poorer?
i'm penniless. What do u think the answer is

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
making friends. I'm friendless.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
honestly, i don't think i should have done less of anything. I'm fine with my very short past and history. I'm NOT referring to my height, or the lack of.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Christmas is over. But, for your information, i had a v merry Christmas.

21. Did you fall in love in 2005?
with myself?

23. How many one-night stands?
i dun understand why this question is ALWAYS haunting EVERY single quiz or questionnaire or whatever.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
oh hahahaha..i actually watch tons of Taiwan variety show. Can't give u the name. I'm shy.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
hate takes up too much of my emotion. It's quite dumb to hate someone, so i've learnt that dislike is good enough. No hate, no hate.

26. What was the best book you read?
Autobiography of a One-year-old. Hahahah..the best i can handle currently.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
as in, of myself? That i can't play any musical instruments? No recorder, no harmonica, no piano. Oh, but my dear lump told me that i've got some uncanny similarities to a violin. Small and whiny. I love you, lump.

28. What did you want and get?
i wanted to be happy. I managed to be quite happy.

29. What did you want and not get?
i wanted to lose weight. Hahaha..and i had buffets, food sprees, and suppers. And more are coming along my way.

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
can't remember any offhand. Apparently none made an impression. Or maybe i'm just too tired now.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i mourned for myself and i was 19.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
i think this question is ridiculous, and i deem it below my dignity to answer this. There is absolutely no point in thinking what could have been made my year “immeasurably more satisfying”. Just cos the setter of this feels that his/her year was “immeasurably unsatisfying”, i don't find mine in need of a hoist in any area to make it “immeasurable more satisfying”.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
i honestly don't think i had any. Being someone who travelled from hougang to clementi in shorts, tshirts n slippers, i think the concept is comfort. Not slack. COMFORT. Comfort is key. Like the taxi we always flag down? Okay. That was a bit too random.

34. What kept you sane?
my prayers to God. Thank God.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i didn't fancy anyone. I laughed at tons tho'

36.What political issue stirred you the most?
i will not comment on any political issue. I'll get sued. Besides, i get stirred up by every political issue. So i'll probably end up typing an essay. And i'm in no mood to type one out. I dun think you're in any mood to read one now. I can't believe u read all the way to this question. This entry's really really long.

37. Who did you miss?
myself. And tons of many others.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
i dunno. There're too many people i'm really thankful to know in law. Really. And i'm thankful for various reasons. Hahaha. Okay. If you don't realise, i'm only trying to shun this question. Stupid lar. Stupid question. I really think setters of questionnaires need more brains.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005
that it takes a lot of effort to choose to smile, and religion helps. Ohh, and that i cannot be a housewife, nor a desk bound office lady. And tauhuey is absolutely fantastic. And i bake nice cookies.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
”i feel like a little girl, trying to conquer the whole wide world” little superhero girl, by Corrine May. Talented singer with a beautiful voice. I attempted to screech along to her songs, and decided that i shouldn't mar them. Maybe, i still am a little girl who wants to conquer the whole wide world.

i realised tt in thanking God for every little detail in my life every night before i slp, i go to bed as a happier person. perhaps, this is what Christianity is all about. to allow one to choose positive emotions over negative ones. i think in the last few months, i've grown to be more positive. despite me being all cynical and moody, at least i've learnt to laugh at certain things and not let it drag me down all d way to d pits.

thank God.

i've just been told that i'm TANTRUM-Y. just cos i insisted tt my hair is nice and i dun care, cos i think its nice. hahahahha..i lk tt. tantrum-y. wad a nice word to replace spoilt. nice euphemism.

some things nv change. and i think it's time for me to realise that it will NEVER change no matter how hard i try. but this is not the reason for my heavy mood. i just can't figure out why i feel so down. im not even sad. im just down.

on a side note, tho' def not happier, i don't mind dying young. its d 2nd day of the new yr. and all i see frm news happen to be abt more deaths frm bird flu, flash flood, bushfire, beheading of soldiers etc. so, tell me a reason why i shld try and live a long life!

i wanna go learn dancing!

n i think my lappy's "a" key is broken.

i think it's funny how i laugh over my cynicism.

how it seems as if some stuff don't bother me anymore.

how it seems as if guys -- married or otherwise, cheating are nothing to me.

how it seems as if it's natural for me to realise, in less than 2 decades on Earth, that love does not last.

how it seems as if it's fine for me to notice that the fear of disappointing FRIENDS is something that is apparent in every decision made. when that shld NOT be the case.

how it seems as if it's normal for everyone to be selfish. less selfish and not more selfless. it's playing with words. but it's true.

quite sad. to be jaded at age 19. sad how i laugh despite saying cynical stuff. sad how i'm amused and happy when i shld be solemn n upset. heck. THE WORLD DOES NOT TELL ME HOW TO LIVE. OR HOW TO BEHAVE AND FEEL. THE WORLD CAN JUST GO EAT SHIT AND DIE. dun be mistakened. im actually in a good mood now.

i had a nightmare. i dreamt tt my mom passed away. in my dream, i sent a sms tt said "this pain is 100 times worse than how i imagined it to be." it really hurt. i woke up with a pain in my chest. bleah. i hope nothing happens.

posingggg..hahaha...i really lk to take pictures! izzy knows that! don't u, izzy?!? anyway..i really enjoyed tonight. altho it was at tamp. and i hate tamp. cos its damn crowded. n i hate crowds. but i'm still happy! yay! cheers! to us. and camera phones! hahahahaha

whoever says that lump and i look alk obviously hasn't seen izzy n i. check out the twinny-ness! harrr

true telepathic moment: when u meet ur dear friend only to find her wearing the exact same top u'r wearing. how cool huh! see d a101 shirts! woooo hoooo. the only cool thing part is how we wore the same shirt. not the shirt.

we wish you a merry christmas
we wish you a merry christmas
we wish you a merry christmas
and a happppppppppy new year!

this is stupidity at its max.

i cannot believe i pretended tt i was holiday-ing when i was supposed to be studying for the papers.(okay..i did tt..but..at this current moment, i deeply regret doing tt). i shldn't have watched wadever i watched when i shld be studying! oh no! i dun want to fail any module n end up retaking it nx yr! i dun want to be kicked out! why do i want results when i didn't put in effort? OH NOOOOOOOO.......

OH NO.

am listening to "imagine me without you" by jaci velasquez. n i just wondered why love songs are all abt how i can't lose you. what abt YOU not being able to lose ME? what abt how indispensible i am, instead of you being all the important? hmmmmm....ego ego. ahahahaa

this is an ugly picture of my nice coin pouch.

to everyone, it looks lk a fortune cookie.

to mr tan zheng roy, it looks lk "a really really huge five-stone."

smarrrrrrt.

i'm 19 years old.

i'm a big girl.

and big girls don't cry.

right?

right.

big girls don't cry.

the dark is too soothing to be real.

big girls don't cry.

big girls don't cry.

if i do get married, the person will definitely NOT be lk my dad.

(to all: for a clearer picture, please read the part 1 to this entry, which is in xue ping's blog..and obviously, if u are one of those who go thru life without using ur brains, let me tell u tt u shld go click under "xueping" in d links.)

Dear christine lump xue ping, in view of the accusations thrown onto me, i guess it's time for me to start clarifying my stand and explain it, instead of giving the supposedly “flimsy excuses”.

1.
is it my fault that the weather was hot? I whined. Yes. I whined that the weather was unbearably hot. I whined that i am NOT going to play tennis in such weather. Heck, i don't even play tennis to begin with. Then again, i do not believe that my whines are THAT powerful, to stop you from playing tennis. I might be important in your life, where i can make my views known without thinking too much and you won't be offended, but i doubt i'll be so influential that i can stop you from doing something you love. I couldn't stop lionel. Even after you joined me (note: YOU JOINED me) in whining, lionel played with the wall. Quite weird, but yeah, mr chew played with the wall. So, i did not jinx your attempt to play tennis. I merely became a convenient thing for you to attribute your failed attempt to.

2.
You wanted to play badminton with clare, and asked me along, which i very enthusiastically agreed. I mean, afterall, there's no sun in a badminton hall. But being the smart person you are, you chose to play tennis on a PUBLIC HOLIDAY. Tell me, which PUBLIC sports complex is open on a PUBLIC HOLIDAY. In fact, it was d NATIONAL DAY. Why do i remember? Cos i was in a red shirt, and i spotted many ppl in red shirts tt day due to the national day carnival that was held in tampines. I want to add that although we did not manage to play badminton in the courts tt day, clare and i played outside the hall. I've a picture as evidence. Ask me for it. While YOU sat down on a bench and whined and suggested a pigging out session at pizza hut! So, who jinxed this attempt?

3.
Someday, i'll be extremely thankful towards you for thinking that i am so influential, great, important and almighty that i can control the weather. Maybe what you said was true! Maybe due to my laziness, i managed to gather the dark clouds together on that morning when we planned to cycle(it was 9th december, by the way. Quite recent). Maybe my desire to sleep in was so strong that it brought down rain. Maybe all my decisions will be reflected in the day's weather! Maybe. Just maybe. Or maybe, my dearest friend decided to push all the blame to me once again. you just forgot about how i probably wasn't THAT influential and that i was actually QUITE excited abt cycling. Just maybe.

My love for u runs deep. It's so deep that i do not mind u accusing me without justified claims and giving baseless conclusions without any strand of proper evidence or concrete examples that i managed to control the weather, the public amenities and your behaviour. Don't worry. I do not discriminate against people who cannot prove, beyond reasonable doubt, that their claims are justified and supported.

Love, jing.

KERSHYA WONG SU LING.

i love you. to bits. haha. thanks for today. i'm really really happy. u made me smile. and laugh. and feel extremely happy. even tho all we did was eat, rot, saunter arnd and take pics. which is wad we ALWAYS do anyway. i love you. i'm going to soak up all your time before you return. cos u always succeed in making my day.

i've been pondering really hard over what i was told. I feel lk some confused little kid, who's quite deprived at the same time. Then again, don't bother asking me what i'm confused about, because like what i told Lionel, i'm actually quite confused about what i'm confused about. This might not make sense, but it's true. I don't know how to put it down in words properly. This confusion might not end soon. It keeps recurring. But i'll understand it all soon. I hope. I mean, afterall, i managed to figure a little bit out last night. Confusion confusion. I wonder if Confucious was confused in his life. HA! Okay. Couldn't resist that last bit. Just ignore it.

*disclaimer.
1) it's not in chronological order
. 2) don't read if u didn't spend any part of the day with me. it'll bore u to death. cept d 1st 2.
3) don't assume tt im talking abt you, unless i state ur name. nooo hinting in my blog.
4) fishermen village has bad dinner. the ambience doesn't make up for it at all. thank goodness there was good company. okay. this isn't really a disclaimer, but i felt lk putting this down.*

today...i saw humans who behaved lk monkeys. i doubt i will ever forget how the woman picked at the man's zits. i mean, it's something to be done at home, not in the mrt, with everyone staring at you. maybe they'r havin an affair, so they've no home to return to for zit-picking. u know how monkeys pick each other's lice? yeah..tt's the image tt'll remain etched in my mind. cept that it was really zits, and not lice. and tt one had long hair. and tt it was on d face, and not d back. and tt they were really humans, and not monkeys.

today...i saw a guy with really really ugly hair. hair so ugly, im amazed he actually took time to style it. he might as well go to some makeover show and let them cut his hair n attempt to make him look better. maybe he was hoping for that. well, in any case, he needs more than a makeover to look good. he needs plastic surgery. he also needs to learn to smoke properly, facing the direction d wind is blowing, cox he stank. and since he stinks, he shld learn how to sit properly too. i've never sat tt close to anyone on the mrt before. it's quite scary. he's got ugly hair. he stinks. he can't speak. and he sat too close.

today...i watched "a twist of fate". it's a really good musical. it's a really fresh change from the usual fluffy musicals singapore theatre puts up. and it's a very impressive attempt at adopting such a classic story into local context. but, the only problem was that, the musical ended a bit late. which means, tt i was late in meeting angie n sammi. and this translated into how we were all late in meeting clar, lump, izzy and apple. then we, all 7 of us, had roy waiting for us for errrr...hahaha..i've no idea how long. more than an hour i think. just cos of tt musical! but it was worth it. i'm sorry, roy. but it was a real good musical. hahaha

today...i ran from esplanade to city hall. after i ran to some weird shop to get a box that i dun even see d need for. but i'll turn it into something useful, like how i attempt to make expensive stuff useful. somehow. and that was only after i went to get nice lil toy figures! har har. i got the toy figures before the play. n i lk them. i've half a mind to keep them for my own. they're really cute. and they'r great decoration. hmmm! maybe i really shld keep them. afterall, they'r MY fave cartoon characters. well, at least if the thing's rejected, i can keep it. yay.

today...i found out tt going out in a big group, someone will feel wrong. not sad. but wrong. just not happy. God probably did help to build up my sensitivity. but i guess i need more work. but not to the extent, where i tear every single moment. the moment of unhappiness might just be a result..of nature. it's probably just the politics of human nature. that we'll feel sian after a while of nothing-ness in a group, unless u'r involved in that bout of nothing-ness. and tt sian-ness shows. and not surprisingly, it only goes off aft someone realises it.

today...i realised tt i really am a psychic! there were many many telepathic moments! and the major major telepathic moment was when i realised that i intended to give someone a gift he gave me. which, by the way, wasn't really snail-mailing tau huey, cos even if dhl sent me the tau huey in an hr, i'd be quite disgusted. well, anyhow, the other telepathic party decides tt he doesn't really want to be telepathic with me. soooo, its okay. i shall just continue having my telephone parties (telepathy. telephone parties. telepathy party. get it?) with lump.

oh oh, if sammi and lump look alk, and i look lk lump, what do we arrive at? if u think that it just means that i look lk sammi. u'r wrong. u'r really wrong. it just means that lump has a common face. HAHAHAHAH. but i still love u, lump.

maybe its just me. but my bdays seem to get worse by the year.

i saw my cousin's christmas list on his blog. so i decided to write down my bday wish list. HINT!

i want my mickey mouse phone.

i want some rich boyfriend to buy me that mickey mouse phone. which just means i want tt phone.

and since im dreaming..i might as well ask for a better brain so tt i'll pass contract this fri.


if u get me any of this..i'll do you a big favour n stop irritating u for the rest of my life.

a sign of how navy killed roy's sanity.

admiral kRack - yesterday, today and everyday. says:

reach me via my secetary at 97941418. (it's my double role you see, i'm schizo, it makes me feel important) hahahaha

dun worry roy..i still love you.

yeah well..i was supposed to be studying for sls..but i got into a convo abt religion. n i just want to record it down.

i think religion is a way of life. because it involves beliefs. only when you believe in your God, then it is possible for you to turn to your God for help. with belief, there's conviction in your prayers. with conviction, there's consolation, comfort and answer.

religion's definitely more than an avenue where you dump your pain, sorrows, fear and worries on your God. it's a constant assurance that you've protection and love from someone Almighty and that everytime you need Him, He'll never desert you. Not many people can give you that assurance. maybe parents. then again, that is why we call Him Father, isn't it.

i lk how they lock eyes and break into smiles. cause it's instantaneous. and real (despite the obvious fact tt its reel). and extremely extremely sweet. just one look to say it all.

im stuck in that fairytale. and i dun see d need to get out of it.

today..i found out that i've something new in my possession. i've a pepper spray. my mom bought it for me because of the stupid research binder. i've been coming home VERY VERY late daily..n that was why she bought the pepper spray for me. amusing. but very heartwarming.

and i've to record this reaction down. or better yet, as zah says, immortalize it.
"she thinks ppl are into kids nowadays?" thanks, best fren. thank you v much.

the day i think i might actually be better off dead.

"Bad Day" Daniel Powter (too apt)

Where is the moment we needed the most

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

They tell me your blue skies fade to grey

They tell me your passion's gone away

And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee to go

You tell me your life's been way off line

You're falling to pieces everytime

And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day

You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday

The point is they laugh at what you say

And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink

And the whole thing turns out wrong

You might not make it back and you know

That you could be well oh that strong

And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most

Oh you and I

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

You've seen what you like

And how does it feel for one more time

You had a bad day

You had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

Had a bad day

the feeling is back to haunt me.

i do not like it.

at all.

i cannot believe im up now despite slping at 5.30 am this morning. i dun lk it.